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Jul 20, 2005 03:43

yea so im def. bored outta my mind. im here at kari's dad's with kari and mike. its gay lol. i dno. i feel like a 3rd wheel. hmm. sucks. major. oh well. i wish i had sumone here to hold me. i feel so lonely. i hate it. i hate bein lonely. most def. erg. i dno wat to do. i know that i only let pippin hold me and i only kissed him and let him kiss me ( Read more... )

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i43378337734 July 20 2005, 14:42:47 UTC

oh wow.. thats alot to read and alot to consume at once especially when you just wake up..lol. but thats deep my wonderful. =( i didnt know you were pregnant! omgooodness. im sooo sorry wbout what happened.

i love you
always and forever!

and ps...i'll hold you so you wont be a third wheel! just have to find a way there...lol.

baebytears16 July 20 2005, 16:40:43 UTC

awww. i know its deep. i like spilled the thoughts running thru my head. i dont even remember what i wrote lol. erg. i wish u were here. i wish u could get here. that would be wonderful! erg. i havent gone to bed haha. prolly wont till later tonite. hopefully ill be able to sleep for once eh? lol. erg. but yes i was. but obviously like i wrote i had a miscarriage. and i feel like shit for not telling roni. i just told him that the test was negative and didnt speak of it after that. just held it inside. but it keeps biting me in the ass making me feel like a horrible person for keeping the truth from him. but i guess it should be a good thing now that he left me and now that it would ruin his life all over again and make him feel like shit as well. i would rather feel like shit and have my life like shit then make his the same way. so yea. erg. maybe u can find a way here? that would make meeeee feel sooo wonderful and happy! hehe.

I Need You!

I Love You...Forever and For Alwayz.

i43378337734 July 20 2005, 19:07:35 UTC

i soo wish i could get there! if i could iw ould in a heartbeat.. id be with my wonderful and my luber all at once. and i would be able to be there for you when you needed.
maybe one day when im older i'll be able to find a way there..like drive..but if i do that i'll have to wait 1 and 1/2 years...and by then who knows..you mihgt be living in florida. hehe.
well i love you and i miss you tons

baebytears16 July 20 2005, 19:55:01 UTC

ahhh i wish u could tooo. if only. but in a cpl months i may be down there atleast to visit. but possibly in 2 yrs i could be living down there. idk. depends on where my life takes me by then. erg. i hope sumtime i can see you SOON! i looooove you!

nvrxforgetxme July 20 2005, 17:56:07 UTC

grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... sadjhgsakmvgfaskjydg

baebytears16 July 20 2005, 18:22:35 UTC

ahhhh. im sooo sorry mike! i thought i had told you. erg. im soooorry. i really am. erg. lsdfkjsdlkfjsldfkj

I LOVE YOU!

simply_amazingx July 20 2005, 18:41:54 UTC

im sorry. =( about the "third wheel" thing...errrrgggg...so sorry. =\. ill stop.

and im sorry about RJ. but if you think it's best he doesn't know, then don't tell him. it won't change anything, except make him feel bad. unless you think he should know the truth, then tell him. ah, idk what im saying. like, mixed signals. just do what your heart tells you to do. and be strong.

iloveyoudarlin !

baebytears16 July 20 2005, 19:44:44 UTC

erg. its ok i promise. i might leave earlier tho. so u and mike can have ur time together. idk. im not deciding till tomorrow.

i dont think i should tell him. i think it wouldnt do any good what so ever. its just. erg. i dont know wat to do. its been like 6 months since then well actually like 8 months since i found out. but i lied to him about it. i didnt even tell him. i kept it from him. so it wouldnt do any good now. and he prolly wouldnt believe me if i said wat happened. all he would do is get pissed at me. even if he believes me. it would make him cry. so i dont think i should tell him. if iwas gna tell him it should have been 8 months ago. when i found out. to late now. cant do anything bout that. lsdkfjsdlfkjsdfkj

i loooove you

simply_amazingx July 21 2005, 05:47:38 UTC

when are you planning on leaving ?? and how you getting home ?? my dad isn't gunna wanan drive a gazillion times. but if you don't wanna be here i understand. it's all good.

iloveyou.

baebytears16 July 21 2005, 22:09:21 UTC

its not that i dont wanna be here its just i dont feel welcome. if you felt like a 3rd wheel you would understand. but mymom will come pick me up she already said she would. and mike can stay here and be with you. then you guys wont hafta worry about me. its all good.

i love you