almost perfect
PG13 | Angst
You can't expect everything wonderful to last forever
In a very ordinary city, there lived a very ordinary girl. That girl was me.
My name is Rae, who's turning sixteen in a few months. I'm currently living separately from my parents because of their marital issues. I don't want to choose between the two of them so I asked if I could live alone. It's not bad since my boyfriend Ryo takes care of me and accompanies me.
Waaaiiiit! Don't think of green and perverted stuff! I know that I'm just fifteen and we have that seven year gap, but he's the kind of guy that doesn't want to do grown up stuff with me yet. He's encouraging me to finish my studies before he'll ask for my hand and marriage... I know.. It's kinda too good to be true.. But he's really sincere and honest.
Oh, by the way, he's currently working as a model for a magazine company. He's actually someone to look up to added the fact that he's really good looking. Although, sometimes I kinda get jealous 'cause his co-female workers are prettier than I could ever be. Most of the time, people ask why he doesn't have a girlfriend even though I'm standing right next to him. They think I'm his sister! Hmpfff..
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"Arghhhkk... This is getting boring," I whispered to my classmate Gee who's totally not listening. We're here at our school's stadium because of some sports event. I honestly don't like sports but we're required to attend and I'm not going to pay any stupid penalty fee.
"Oh look!" She pointed at the player with the number 18 printed on his back. Who the hayhay is that?
"Who's that?" I asked her.
"He's Bob! The Senior's basketball ace!" She chirped with glee. I guess she's a fan of his. Or maybe she has a thing for him, I can't make sure. But either way, she looks funny clapping and screaming 'Go Bob!' like a retarded seal.
I pulled out my phone and texted Ryo. I think he's awake at this time, it's already ten in the morning. I started typing..
'Hey Ryo! Rise and shine! How's dreamland?'
As I was about to put my phone back in my bag, but it rang all of a sudden. Wow that was a fast reply.
'Hahaha, I've been up since eight. Dreamland was awesome. Hey, what's gotten in to you? It's Saturday. :o'
I couldn't help but smile at his text. I forgot to tell him that we had this sports event thingy.
'Nah, just school stuff. Are you going to be busy later? Cause I need you to pick me up. =____= I can feel like it's going to rain.'
Just then, Gee held on to me and screeched. "OMG RAE!! BOB WINKED AT ME!"
"That's nice." I answered nonchalantly. I know I should be happy for her but... Meh, the weather is changing my mood.
'When and where, your highness?''
I chuckled and replied back.
'Er.. In about an hour at our school stadium. Please don't be late milord. Being alone is really awkward. :D'
After a while, my phone beeped back.
'Okay. I'm sorry.'
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"Wow, he sure is early," I sarcastically said. I've been waiting in front of the stadium's gate for more than two hours. He didn't bother to reply when I asked him why the hayhay was he sorry for. He didn't even answer any of my calls.
I'm really worried. He's not the type of person to be late and have no excuse. Even if he's pulling a surprise he still replies to some text messages. I can't imagine what happened to him! Oh no! Please let him be okay.
I sobbed without covering my face. People who saw me were giving me either WTF looks or sympathetic ones. I didn't care. I took out my phone and dialed his phone number again and kept calling him. His phone was ringing but there was still no answer.
"Don't make me worry so much, Ryo! Are you fucking alright? Can you just pick up or something?" I shouted at my phone. Aish. If he's not coming to get me, then I'll just head there myself! I decided to run towards his condominium more than four blocks away. It started to drizzle as I was running. I didn't expect this to happen so I spent the fare money I brought with me for food. Shit. I shouldn't have done that!!
In front of his condominium, there were a lot of people, an ambulance and three fire trucks. The fourth and fifth floor were burnt but thanks to the rain, the floor where he stays in and the other floors were unharmed. But where is he?
I made my way through the people and reached where the firemen were.
"Sir! Excuse me! Did you happen to see a tall, skinny guy with a tattoo on his chest escape the building?" I was sobbing and panting as I uttered those words.
'Please assure me that he's safe.' I mentally begged him, hoping that he could get what my eyes say.
He gave me a concerned look and then I clutched his arm.
"Please tell me you saw him get out of the building unharmed! Please! He lives in the third building! He must've gotten out safely right?"
I was begging so much that it hurts. He escorted me towards the ambulance and covered me with a warm towel. He made me sit down and then he heaved out a deep sigh.
"I'm sorry miss," he placed something on my hands and when I look down, it was Ryo's phone. I saw his lock screen wallpaper, it was a picture of us just recently. Smiles were painted on our faces... Now...
I don't know if the heavens were sympathizing with my pain or something, because as my tears fell, the rain poured. I didn't notice that there was a lady in front of me until she took my hand and knelt. She was shaking, with fear or from the cold --I didn't know. She held my right hand and placed it near her chest and then she cried.
"Why," was all I could manage to say. It wasn't a question. My intention was to get her to spill what the hayhay was she doing. I didn't know her but I guess she knew me.
"I'm sorry," she kept sobbing and clenching my hand tightly.
"I didn't mean to deceive him," she started to explain. I'm not stupid to not know that by him, she meant Ryo. I wanted to strangle her right at the moment she breathed the last syllable.
But she needs to explain.
"I told him that.. H-he was the father of my baby... I thought that he might love me after I said that.. But he insisted that.. I was lying.." She loosened her grip on my hand but she still held it close to her.
"So... I faked a DNA result. I thought he would believe me but... He felt mixed emotions. Like he wanted to strangle me or hug me or... Or.." She cried hard. I had to stop the urge to slap her although I couldn't. Her right cheek reddened. It obviously hurt since the hand I used to slap her held Ryo's phone. She didn't react much and heaved out a sigh. She new she deserved it.
"I went out of his condo and burned mine. Hahaha," she laughed bitterly for a moment. "He saved me and my baby-- which wasn't even his."
I abruptly took my arm away from her.
"I didn't mean for him to save us... My baby needed a father.." She attempted to persuade me that what she did was partially right. I could hear it from her quivering voice.
"Then any other guy would've been fine! Why Ryo? Why?!" I pulled her by the collar, the phone fell from my grasp.
"He was special." My emotions might have been delayed. I felt my heart aching. I can feel the chill of the weather. I felt sensitive to everything. Hearing her say that he was special... It finally broke me. I let my hold loosened and gradually let go. Ryo is gone. He died saving people he shouldn't give a shit about.
"Nonetheless... I think he loathed himself after I showed him that fake result. I saw it in his eyes," I stared at her. My thoughts were all jumbled up.
"I knew he loved you, but I didn't want to believe it. I've been trying to lure him away from you but he just shoved me away... I didn't like the fact that you.. a brat could be chosen over me. So it finally resulted to doing what I did..." She picked up Ryo's phone and put it in my hands grasp.
"My sorry will never do anything good. But please take this." She held out a silver pendant that was shaped into a lock. It was Ryo's.
"He got stuck in the fire. I couldn't help him and I guess he knew that too, so he handed me this." After I snatched the pendant from her, she gave me a faint smile and walked away.
I remember the night where I got Ryo to swear to me under the luminescence of the moon. I wanted to do a lot of things with him. Stuff that I never got to do when I was younger, like: star gazing,playing tag, sleeping under the shade of the trees in midday, stuff like that.. It may seem childish but those were my dreams... But now, they're distant regrets.
I half dragged, half walked myself five blocks towards my apartment. I'm quite sure my parents will know about this incident and they'll nag at me later. But before that happens, I want to take a break from this nightmare. I'm drenched and cold. But that won't stop me from lying down on the chilly floor in my bedroom.
"Oh Ryo. What about your promise?" I held the lock pendant close and kissed it. I wish I had the key.
As I was subconsciously shedding tears, I slowly fell into a dark and oblivious slumber. Tired and fed up with life's bullshit.
[A/N: Well, first ever one-shot that I loathe so much because it sucks so hard than a vacuum.
You can't expect everything wonderful to last forever
In a very ordinary city, there lived a very ordinary girl. That girl was me.
My name is Rae, who's turning sixteen in a few months. I'm currently living separately from my parents because of their marital issues. I don't want to choose between the two of them so I asked if I could live alone. It's not bad since my boyfriend Ryo takes care of me and accompanies me.
Waaaiiiit! Don't think of green and perverted stuff! I know that I'm just fifteen and we have that seven year gap, but he's the kind of guy that doesn't want to do grown up stuff with me yet. He's encouraging me to finish my studies before he'll ask for my hand and marriage... I know.. It's kinda too good to be true.. But he's really sincere and honest.
Oh, by the way, he's currently working as a model for a magazine company. He's actually someone to look up to added the fact that he's really good looking. Although, sometimes I kinda get jealous 'cause his co-female workers are prettier than I could ever be. Most of the time, people ask why he doesn't have a girlfriend even though I'm standing right next to him. They think I'm his sister! Hmpfff..
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"Arghhhkk... This is getting boring," I whispered to my classmate Gee who's totally not listening. We're here at our school's stadium because of some sports event. I honestly don't like sports but we're required to attend and I'm not going to pay any stupid penalty fee.
"Oh look!" She pointed at the player with the number 18 printed on his back. Who the hayhay is that?
"Who's that?" I asked her.
"He's Bob! The Senior's basketball ace!" She chirped with glee. I guess she's a fan of his. Or maybe she has a thing for him, I can't make sure. But either way, she looks funny clapping and screaming 'Go Bob!' like a retarded seal.
I pulled out my phone and texted Ryo. I think he's awake at this time, it's already ten in the morning. I started typing..
'Hey Ryo! Rise and shine! How's dreamland?'
As I was about to put my phone back in my bag, but it rang all of a sudden. Wow that was a fast reply.
'Hahaha, I've been up since eight. Dreamland was awesome. Hey, what's gotten in to you? It's Saturday. :o'
I couldn't help but smile at his text. I forgot to tell him that we had this sports event thingy.
'Nah, just school stuff. Are you going to be busy later? Cause I need you to pick me up. =____= I can feel like it's going to rain.'
Just then, Gee held on to me and screeched. "OMG RAE!! BOB WINKED AT ME!"
"That's nice." I answered nonchalantly. I know I should be happy for her but... Meh, the weather is changing my mood.
'When and where, your highness?''
I chuckled and replied back.
'Er.. In about an hour at our school stadium. Please don't be late milord. Being alone is really awkward. :D'
After a while, my phone beeped back.
'Okay. I'm sorry.'
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"Wow, he sure is early," I sarcastically said. I've been waiting in front of the stadium's gate for more than two hours. He didn't bother to reply when I asked him why the hayhay was he sorry for. He didn't even answer any of my calls.
I'm really worried. He's not the type of person to be late and have no excuse. Even if he's pulling a surprise he still replies to some text messages. I can't imagine what happened to him! Oh no! Please let him be okay.
I sobbed without covering my face. People who saw me were giving me either WTF looks or sympathetic ones. I didn't care. I took out my phone and dialed his phone number again and kept calling him. His phone was ringing but there was still no answer.
"Don't make me worry so much, Ryo! Are you fucking alright? Can you just pick up or something?" I shouted at my phone. Aish. If he's not coming to get me, then I'll just head there myself! I decided to run towards his condominium more than four blocks away. It started to drizzle as I was running. I didn't expect this to happen so I spent the fare money I brought with me for food. Shit. I shouldn't have done that!!
In front of his condominium, there were a lot of people, an ambulance and three fire trucks. The fourth and fifth floor were burnt but thanks to the rain, the floor where he stays in and the other floors were unharmed. But where is he?
I made my way through the people and reached where the firemen were.
"Sir! Excuse me! Did you happen to see a tall, skinny guy with a tattoo on his chest escape the building?" I was sobbing and panting as I uttered those words.
'Please assure me that he's safe.' I mentally begged him, hoping that he could get what my eyes say.
He gave me a concerned look and then I clutched his arm.
"Please tell me you saw him get out of the building unharmed! Please! He lives in the third building! He must've gotten out safely right?"
I was begging so much that it hurts. He escorted me towards the ambulance and covered me with a warm towel. He made me sit down and then he heaved out a deep sigh.
"I'm sorry miss," he placed something on my hands and when I look down, it was Ryo's phone. I saw his lock screen wallpaper, it was a picture of us just recently. Smiles were painted on our faces... Now...
I don't know if the heavens were sympathizing with my pain or something, because as my tears fell, the rain poured. I didn't notice that there was a lady in front of me until she took my hand and knelt. She was shaking, with fear or from the cold --I didn't know. She held my right hand and placed it near her chest and then she cried.
"Why," was all I could manage to say. It wasn't a question. My intention was to get her to spill what the hayhay was she doing. I didn't know her but I guess she knew me.
"I'm sorry," she kept sobbing and clenching my hand tightly.
"I didn't mean to deceive him," she started to explain. I'm not stupid to not know that by him, she meant Ryo. I wanted to strangle her right at the moment she breathed the last syllable.
But she needs to explain.
"I told him that.. H-he was the father of my baby... I thought that he might love me after I said that.. But he insisted that.. I was lying.." She loosened her grip on my hand but she still held it close to her.
"So... I faked a DNA result. I thought he would believe me but... He felt mixed emotions. Like he wanted to strangle me or hug me or... Or.." She cried hard. I had to stop the urge to slap her although I couldn't. Her right cheek reddened. It obviously hurt since the hand I used to slap her held Ryo's phone. She didn't react much and heaved out a sigh. She new she deserved it.
"I went out of his condo and burned mine. Hahaha," she laughed bitterly for a moment. "He saved me and my baby-- which wasn't even his."
I abruptly took my arm away from her.
"I didn't mean for him to save us... My baby needed a father.." She attempted to persuade me that what she did was partially right. I could hear it from her quivering voice.
"Then any other guy would've been fine! Why Ryo? Why?!" I pulled her by the collar, the phone fell from my grasp.
"He was special." My emotions might have been delayed. I felt my heart aching. I can feel the chill of the weather. I felt sensitive to everything. Hearing her say that he was special... It finally broke me. I let my hold loosened and gradually let go. Ryo is gone. He died saving people he shouldn't give a shit about.
"Nonetheless... I think he loathed himself after I showed him that fake result. I saw it in his eyes," I stared at her. My thoughts were all jumbled up.
"I knew he loved you, but I didn't want to believe it. I've been trying to lure him away from you but he just shoved me away... I didn't like the fact that you.. a brat could be chosen over me. So it finally resulted to doing what I did..." She picked up Ryo's phone and put it in my hands grasp.
"My sorry will never do anything good. But please take this." She held out a silver pendant that was shaped into a lock. It was Ryo's.
"He got stuck in the fire. I couldn't help him and I guess he knew that too, so he handed me this." After I snatched the pendant from her, she gave me a faint smile and walked away.
I remember the night where I got Ryo to swear to me under the luminescence of the moon. I wanted to do a lot of things with him. Stuff that I never got to do when I was younger, like: star gazing,playing tag, sleeping under the shade of the trees in midday, stuff like that.. It may seem childish but those were my dreams... But now, they're distant regrets.
I half dragged, half walked myself five blocks towards my apartment. I'm quite sure my parents will know about this incident and they'll nag at me later. But before that happens, I want to take a break from this nightmare. I'm drenched and cold. But that won't stop me from lying down on the chilly floor in my bedroom.
"Oh Ryo. What about your promise?" I held the lock pendant close and kissed it. I wish I had the key.
As I was subconsciously shedding tears, I slowly fell into a dark and oblivious slumber. Tired and fed up with life's bullshit.
[A/N: Well, first ever one-shot that I loathe so much because it sucks so hard than a vacuum.