Realization Chapter 3
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Jaejoong turned the page of his book, waiting in eager excitement for the revealing of the killer in his mystery novel. He bit his lip in anticipation, he always got so sucked in whenever he was reading a story.
Jaejoong’s room was completely dark except for one light by Jaejoong’s window-side desk that he was using right now. Suddenly Jae realized how eerie it was to read a suspense thriller at night in this darkened room. But quickly he shrugged and thought, it’s not like I have anything to be afraid of…
Jaejoong immersed himself more deeply into his book, his shoulders hunched over in concentration. Just a little bit more, the main character was entering the deserted house in order to pursue the phantom ghost. It was at that moment Jaejoong felt a hand clutch at his shoulder.
“Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!” Jaejoong let out a bloodcurdling scream that got stifled by the hand that was touching him.
Jaejoong whipped his head around quickly to come face to face with…Yunho. Yunho looked down at him, eyes twinkling with mischief and amusement.
Yunho imitated Jae’s horrified face and laughed, “I’m not gonna lie. That scream was pre-tty girly Boojae.”
Jaejoong glared up at Yunho, “You scared me! I was reaching a really pivotal point in my book for goodness sake!”
Yunho just laughed again and hugged Jae from the back, leaning over to whisper sorry in Jae’s ear.
Jaejoong felt himself burning up slightly at the skinship. He tried to ease himself out of Yunho’s grasp but Yunho was stubborn, his arms embracing Jae’s body more tightly and his face coming to nestle on Jae’s neck.
“Y-yunho, I want to read, leave me alone,” Jaejoong felt his voice tremble slightly.
“No, we’ll do something even more fun,” Yunho growled in a husky voice.
His face on Jae’s neck moved upwards and Yunho nipped lightly on Jaejoong’s ear. “Ah!” Jaejoong called out once more but this time more softly.
“Let’s move this to the bed,” Yunho picked up Jaejoong in his arms and walked over to the bed, laying Jae down gently. Jae looked up at Yunho, whose face was dark with some emotion.
“Yunho what are-“ Jaejoong’s words were halted by Yunho’s lips that descended on his own, sucking on his plump lower lip and easing his mouth open. Jaejoong moaned but that also was sucked into Yunho’s mouth as he opened Jae’s mouth wider with his intrusive tongue. Yunho’s tongue explored every crevice of Jaejoong’s mouth, finally settling on wrapping Jae’s tongue in a sticky exchange of saliva.
Yunho’s hands propped his upper body up above Jae’s, only mere inches of space between them. However his lower body was lying right on top of Jae’s, their groins touching through the fabric of their pants. Jae found himself at a loss of breath, feeling only too tangibly the huge bulge in Yunho’s pants.
It was then Yunho began to move. With his mouth still in deep kiss with Jaejoong, he slowly grinded his lower body against Jae’s, causing a delicious friction that made all the cells in Jae’s body come alive. This was wrong, Jaejoong thought, they shouldn’t be doing this but it feels perfectly heavenly.
Yunho briefly took his lips off of Jae’s to mutter, “I want to hear you moan, baby.”
To which Jae so readily complied, panting slightly, “Ohhh soo good Yunho”
Yunho smiled and reached his hand down into Jae’s pants, pulling out and stroking Jae’s member directly. The feeling was exquisite. Yunho tenderly caressed the length over and over and even bent over to flick the very end with his tongue.
***
It was from these delicious throes of passion that Jaejoong awoke from his dream with eyes shot open and heaving breath.
What the fuck just happened…did the words “ohh soo good Yunho” just come out of my mouth??
Jaejoong opened his mouth wide in a silent scream, his hands clutching either side of his face like the little boy from “Home Alone”. He buried his body deep into the bed, rolling left to right, banging his head repeatedly into his pillow screaming “Why??” in his head.
After he was done throwing a miniature fit, Jae took in some deep breaths and tried to regain his composure. His body still felt really hot. It was then that Jaejoong realized he felt something really damp and uncomfortable between his legs. Tentatively lifting one end of his blanket, Jae looked at his lower body. Oh for Christ’s sake.
A wet dream. Jae hadn’t had a wet dream since middle school.
Jae got up from the bed and took off his clothes. He held his damp pajama pants and underwear in his hands a little embarrassedly, he didn’t quite know what to do with this. It would feel weird to wash them too, Jaejoong thought. Without delay Jae rolled up both articles of clothing and stuffed it in the trash can. If only he could throw away his conflicted emotions so easily as well…
Jae went into the bathroom, took a quick shower, and just for good measure washed his face with cold water in the sink. Twice.
Looking up into the mirror, Jae sighed a little. What bothered Jae even more than the fact that he had had such a dream was that in the dream itself he hadn’t even put up much of a fight! It was as if he enjoyed it. He had enjoyed it, to be perfectly honest. And that’s what made Jaejoong so scared.
Jaejoong’s face burned in shame once again and he clenched his fists in frustration. Why was his body being like this? Yunho is just a friend, Yunho is just a friend, repeating this one thought over and over again, Jaejoong tried to force himself to go back to sleep. It was going to be a long night.
***
“Okay, we’ll call it a day! You guys worked hard, go rest now, alright?” The dance coordinator called out to the five boys in the rehearsal room who were sprawled on the floor in all different manners.
“Man, all I’m gonna do when I get home is take a hot bath and sleep. Maybe bathe and sleep at the same time…” Junsu stared up at the ceiling listlessly, his body completely prostrated on the floor. Today there was no sign of his usual cheeriness thanks to the grueling dance session.
Yoochun who was resting his head on Junsu’s stomach-despite Junsu’s constant prodding for him to move-reached over for his water bottle and placed it on his forehead, hoping it would give him some respite. “Bathe? I don’t even know if I’ll even manage to do that. God, I can barely move.”
“Can you still say that after how much you sweat today? Dude, at least unstick the hair that’s matted to your forehead, gross,” Junsu rolled his eyes in fake disgust.
“I’ll make sure to sleep with you today, baby,” Yoochun, despite his exhaustion, still had the energy to banter with Junsu it seemed.
Changmin, without a word, simply reached for his own water and dumped the contents completely over his head.
Junsu turned his head to see where Jaejoong and Yunho were sitting. The two were together in a corner caught up in a heated conversation. It wasn’t uncommon for those two to go off into their own world together, though it usually resulted in Jaejoong going one step too far and completely getting sucked into his own crazy fourth dimension (that was a totally different matter in itself). But today, those two seemed even more so immersed into whatever they were talking about between themselves, completely ignoring the other three members who were playing dead patiently until Yunho decided it was time to go home. Junsu sighed and turned his face upwards gazing the ceiling again, his hand pushing weakly at Yoochun’s sweaty head that refused to budge.
“I said I’m okay! Really it’s nothing I swear!” Jaejoong, face red and still panting slightly, persisted in shrugging off Yunho’s attempt to lift up his shirt.
“I said, let me look at it! It will only take a second, why do you have to be such a pansy about it??” Yunho, gritting his teeth, refused to budge.
“It doesn’t even really hurt that much,” Jaejoong desperately tugged at the end of his shirt and pushed Yunho away from his body a little roughly.
Yunho finally stopped his movements and blew out a whiff of air in frustration, “What the hell Jae? Are you hiding something under your shirt or something? It’s not like you’re a girl or anything.”
For a second a strange light entered Jaejoong’s eyes as he looked at Yunho before he quickly looked down.
Yunho, who had been friends with Jaejoong for the past 6 years could quickly pick up on Jaejoong’s mood changes. “Hey, are you pissed? Come on, toughen up man! I’m just kidding around with you,” Yunho flashed his signature disarming smile and shook Jaejoong’s shoulder lightly.
Jaejoong looked up, bravely smiling a little, “I know. But really, I’m okay. I just get bothered when you treat me like a kid.”
Yunho laughed a little sheepishly and scratched the back of his head, “Yeah, sorry about that. I just felt bad for getting you hurt back there.” During their fast-paced, intensive choreography, Yunho had accidentally elbowed Jaejoong really hard in the stomach, making him fall to the ground and lay there wheezing for a good ten minutes.
Jaejoong rolled his eyes, “Seriously, I’m not gonna die from one blow to the gut. Plus it was my fault for taking the wrong step.” It was true. Jaejoong had in fact been in the wrong place at the wrong time. Jaejoong had unconsciously taken a step forward during the dance and just stopped for completely no reason. Jaejoong seemed to make a lot of these kinds of mistakes these days. He was a little on the clumsy side naturally but his mistakes had increased more than usual.
“Yeah, you need to pay attention. You know my movements are always powerful. You’re lucky you didn’t get even more hurt than you did,” Yunho pretended to flex his arms a little and laughed.
Jaejoong chuckled, “I think it’s more a matter of you having long arms like some kind of caveman.”
Yunho made a mock-hurt expression, “You’re too harsh Boojae.”
But he was quickly serious again, “But really, you fell down pretty hard and didn’t get up for a while there. Sure you’re alright?”
Jaejoong patted his stomach lightly, “I’m a-ok. It’s not like I’m a girl or anything.” There was a bitter tinge to the last words out of his mouth but Yunho didn’t seem to catch it.
Yunho stood up stretching and finally took notice of the other three boys who were lounging on the floor, now staring up at him. “What are you lot doing? Come on, let’s go home!”
The rest of the boys got up slowly, moaning and groaning every step of the way. Yunho, on the other hand the most fit out of the five, energetically rallied up his group members, lifting up arms and slapping backs.
Jaejoong, also slowly dusting himself off and getting up, watched Yunho from the corner. He smiled, watching Yunho interact with the other group members but slowly his smile slid off his face.
It was true. He wasn’t a girl so there was no reason for him to act like such a prude earlier. However, Jaejoong couldn’t help it. These days, whenever Yunho was close to him, he felt really strange. Some days he thought he was feeling feverish only to find that his temperature was perfectly normal. And he had developed a habit of holding his breath, just short little pauses, that he let out in a big whoosh when Yunho went elsewhere.
It was making him make stupid mistakes whenever he was by Yunho, just like he had done earlier during the rehearsal. That’s why he couldn’t have Yunho touch him for the time being. It felt too weird, as if he was some kind of pervert or something. Maybe I’m going crazy, he thought.
Of course and there was that dream he had the other day. Jaejoong shivered a little. He had forbidden himself from thinking about that.
Jaejoong brushed his hand through his silky blonde locks and closed his eyes briefly. Hopefully these strange feelings would go away soon. Jaejoong let his hair rustle softly back in place and moved his hand over to his chest. It had been 10 minutes since they had stopped practicing yet his heart was still beating so hard.
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A/N Once again, hope you guys enjoyed. This chapter's a lot longer this time...not really sure why...but anyways, yeah, enjoy! I'm really in my writing groove these days so writing this story has been so much fun. I'm thinking I'll finish it within the next few weeks before I head back to school so keep coming back for regular updates! I may be able to continue updating every day or so like I've done thus far and hopefully plunge into the Yoosu story I've been itching to write as well. ^^
Oh btw, my work is unbetaed so tell me if there are any glaring mistakes ^^;;
Go to Chapter 3: PART B
Jaejoong turned the page of his book, waiting in eager excitement for the revealing of the killer in his mystery novel. He bit his lip in anticipation, he always got so sucked in whenever he was reading a story.
Jaejoong’s room was completely dark except for one light by Jaejoong’s window-side desk that he was using right now. Suddenly Jae realized how eerie it was to read a suspense thriller at night in this darkened room. But quickly he shrugged and thought, it’s not like I have anything to be afraid of…
Jaejoong immersed himself more deeply into his book, his shoulders hunched over in concentration. Just a little bit more, the main character was entering the deserted house in order to pursue the phantom ghost. It was at that moment Jaejoong felt a hand clutch at his shoulder.
“Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!” Jaejoong let out a bloodcurdling scream that got stifled by the hand that was touching him.
Jaejoong whipped his head around quickly to come face to face with…Yunho. Yunho looked down at him, eyes twinkling with mischief and amusement.
Yunho imitated Jae’s horrified face and laughed, “I’m not gonna lie. That scream was pre-tty girly Boojae.”
Jaejoong glared up at Yunho, “You scared me! I was reaching a really pivotal point in my book for goodness sake!”
Yunho just laughed again and hugged Jae from the back, leaning over to whisper sorry in Jae’s ear.
Jaejoong felt himself burning up slightly at the skinship. He tried to ease himself out of Yunho’s grasp but Yunho was stubborn, his arms embracing Jae’s body more tightly and his face coming to nestle on Jae’s neck.
“Y-yunho, I want to read, leave me alone,” Jaejoong felt his voice tremble slightly.
“No, we’ll do something even more fun,” Yunho growled in a husky voice.
His face on Jae’s neck moved upwards and Yunho nipped lightly on Jaejoong’s ear. “Ah!” Jaejoong called out once more but this time more softly.
“Let’s move this to the bed,” Yunho picked up Jaejoong in his arms and walked over to the bed, laying Jae down gently. Jae looked up at Yunho, whose face was dark with some emotion.
“Yunho what are-“ Jaejoong’s words were halted by Yunho’s lips that descended on his own, sucking on his plump lower lip and easing his mouth open. Jaejoong moaned but that also was sucked into Yunho’s mouth as he opened Jae’s mouth wider with his intrusive tongue. Yunho’s tongue explored every crevice of Jaejoong’s mouth, finally settling on wrapping Jae’s tongue in a sticky exchange of saliva.
Yunho’s hands propped his upper body up above Jae’s, only mere inches of space between them. However his lower body was lying right on top of Jae’s, their groins touching through the fabric of their pants. Jae found himself at a loss of breath, feeling only too tangibly the huge bulge in Yunho’s pants.
It was then Yunho began to move. With his mouth still in deep kiss with Jaejoong, he slowly grinded his lower body against Jae’s, causing a delicious friction that made all the cells in Jae’s body come alive. This was wrong, Jaejoong thought, they shouldn’t be doing this but it feels perfectly heavenly.
Yunho briefly took his lips off of Jae’s to mutter, “I want to hear you moan, baby.”
To which Jae so readily complied, panting slightly, “Ohhh soo good Yunho”
Yunho smiled and reached his hand down into Jae’s pants, pulling out and stroking Jae’s member directly. The feeling was exquisite. Yunho tenderly caressed the length over and over and even bent over to flick the very end with his tongue.
***
It was from these delicious throes of passion that Jaejoong awoke from his dream with eyes shot open and heaving breath.
What the fuck just happened…did the words “ohh soo good Yunho” just come out of my mouth??
Jaejoong opened his mouth wide in a silent scream, his hands clutching either side of his face like the little boy from “Home Alone”. He buried his body deep into the bed, rolling left to right, banging his head repeatedly into his pillow screaming “Why??” in his head.
After he was done throwing a miniature fit, Jae took in some deep breaths and tried to regain his composure. His body still felt really hot. It was then that Jaejoong realized he felt something really damp and uncomfortable between his legs. Tentatively lifting one end of his blanket, Jae looked at his lower body. Oh for Christ’s sake.
A wet dream. Jae hadn’t had a wet dream since middle school.
Jae got up from the bed and took off his clothes. He held his damp pajama pants and underwear in his hands a little embarrassedly, he didn’t quite know what to do with this. It would feel weird to wash them too, Jaejoong thought. Without delay Jae rolled up both articles of clothing and stuffed it in the trash can. If only he could throw away his conflicted emotions so easily as well…
Jae went into the bathroom, took a quick shower, and just for good measure washed his face with cold water in the sink. Twice.
Looking up into the mirror, Jae sighed a little. What bothered Jae even more than the fact that he had had such a dream was that in the dream itself he hadn’t even put up much of a fight! It was as if he enjoyed it. He had enjoyed it, to be perfectly honest. And that’s what made Jaejoong so scared.
Jaejoong’s face burned in shame once again and he clenched his fists in frustration. Why was his body being like this? Yunho is just a friend, Yunho is just a friend, repeating this one thought over and over again, Jaejoong tried to force himself to go back to sleep. It was going to be a long night.
***
“Okay, we’ll call it a day! You guys worked hard, go rest now, alright?” The dance coordinator called out to the five boys in the rehearsal room who were sprawled on the floor in all different manners.
“Man, all I’m gonna do when I get home is take a hot bath and sleep. Maybe bathe and sleep at the same time…” Junsu stared up at the ceiling listlessly, his body completely prostrated on the floor. Today there was no sign of his usual cheeriness thanks to the grueling dance session.
Yoochun who was resting his head on Junsu’s stomach-despite Junsu’s constant prodding for him to move-reached over for his water bottle and placed it on his forehead, hoping it would give him some respite. “Bathe? I don’t even know if I’ll even manage to do that. God, I can barely move.”
“Can you still say that after how much you sweat today? Dude, at least unstick the hair that’s matted to your forehead, gross,” Junsu rolled his eyes in fake disgust.
“I’ll make sure to sleep with you today, baby,” Yoochun, despite his exhaustion, still had the energy to banter with Junsu it seemed.
Changmin, without a word, simply reached for his own water and dumped the contents completely over his head.
Junsu turned his head to see where Jaejoong and Yunho were sitting. The two were together in a corner caught up in a heated conversation. It wasn’t uncommon for those two to go off into their own world together, though it usually resulted in Jaejoong going one step too far and completely getting sucked into his own crazy fourth dimension (that was a totally different matter in itself). But today, those two seemed even more so immersed into whatever they were talking about between themselves, completely ignoring the other three members who were playing dead patiently until Yunho decided it was time to go home. Junsu sighed and turned his face upwards gazing the ceiling again, his hand pushing weakly at Yoochun’s sweaty head that refused to budge.
“I said I’m okay! Really it’s nothing I swear!” Jaejoong, face red and still panting slightly, persisted in shrugging off Yunho’s attempt to lift up his shirt.
“I said, let me look at it! It will only take a second, why do you have to be such a pansy about it??” Yunho, gritting his teeth, refused to budge.
“It doesn’t even really hurt that much,” Jaejoong desperately tugged at the end of his shirt and pushed Yunho away from his body a little roughly.
Yunho finally stopped his movements and blew out a whiff of air in frustration, “What the hell Jae? Are you hiding something under your shirt or something? It’s not like you’re a girl or anything.”
For a second a strange light entered Jaejoong’s eyes as he looked at Yunho before he quickly looked down.
Yunho, who had been friends with Jaejoong for the past 6 years could quickly pick up on Jaejoong’s mood changes. “Hey, are you pissed? Come on, toughen up man! I’m just kidding around with you,” Yunho flashed his signature disarming smile and shook Jaejoong’s shoulder lightly.
Jaejoong looked up, bravely smiling a little, “I know. But really, I’m okay. I just get bothered when you treat me like a kid.”
Yunho laughed a little sheepishly and scratched the back of his head, “Yeah, sorry about that. I just felt bad for getting you hurt back there.” During their fast-paced, intensive choreography, Yunho had accidentally elbowed Jaejoong really hard in the stomach, making him fall to the ground and lay there wheezing for a good ten minutes.
Jaejoong rolled his eyes, “Seriously, I’m not gonna die from one blow to the gut. Plus it was my fault for taking the wrong step.” It was true. Jaejoong had in fact been in the wrong place at the wrong time. Jaejoong had unconsciously taken a step forward during the dance and just stopped for completely no reason. Jaejoong seemed to make a lot of these kinds of mistakes these days. He was a little on the clumsy side naturally but his mistakes had increased more than usual.
“Yeah, you need to pay attention. You know my movements are always powerful. You’re lucky you didn’t get even more hurt than you did,” Yunho pretended to flex his arms a little and laughed.
Jaejoong chuckled, “I think it’s more a matter of you having long arms like some kind of caveman.”
Yunho made a mock-hurt expression, “You’re too harsh Boojae.”
But he was quickly serious again, “But really, you fell down pretty hard and didn’t get up for a while there. Sure you’re alright?”
Jaejoong patted his stomach lightly, “I’m a-ok. It’s not like I’m a girl or anything.” There was a bitter tinge to the last words out of his mouth but Yunho didn’t seem to catch it.
Yunho stood up stretching and finally took notice of the other three boys who were lounging on the floor, now staring up at him. “What are you lot doing? Come on, let’s go home!”
The rest of the boys got up slowly, moaning and groaning every step of the way. Yunho, on the other hand the most fit out of the five, energetically rallied up his group members, lifting up arms and slapping backs.
Jaejoong, also slowly dusting himself off and getting up, watched Yunho from the corner. He smiled, watching Yunho interact with the other group members but slowly his smile slid off his face.
It was true. He wasn’t a girl so there was no reason for him to act like such a prude earlier. However, Jaejoong couldn’t help it. These days, whenever Yunho was close to him, he felt really strange. Some days he thought he was feeling feverish only to find that his temperature was perfectly normal. And he had developed a habit of holding his breath, just short little pauses, that he let out in a big whoosh when Yunho went elsewhere.
It was making him make stupid mistakes whenever he was by Yunho, just like he had done earlier during the rehearsal. That’s why he couldn’t have Yunho touch him for the time being. It felt too weird, as if he was some kind of pervert or something. Maybe I’m going crazy, he thought.
Of course and there was that dream he had the other day. Jaejoong shivered a little. He had forbidden himself from thinking about that.
Jaejoong brushed his hand through his silky blonde locks and closed his eyes briefly. Hopefully these strange feelings would go away soon. Jaejoong let his hair rustle softly back in place and moved his hand over to his chest. It had been 10 minutes since they had stopped practicing yet his heart was still beating so hard.
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A/N Once again, hope you guys enjoyed. This chapter's a lot longer this time...not really sure why...but anyways, yeah, enjoy! I'm really in my writing groove these days so writing this story has been so much fun. I'm thinking I'll finish it within the next few weeks before I head back to school so keep coming back for regular updates! I may be able to continue updating every day or so like I've done thus far and hopefully plunge into the Yoosu story I've been itching to write as well. ^^
Oh btw, my work is unbetaed so tell me if there are any glaring mistakes ^^;;
Go to Chapter 3: PART B