FUUUUUUUCK.
A not so great day and unwinding on the walk home I start focusing on every thing that isn't right. I hold myself to fix everything I have no business in.

I do not think there is a single human that can be relied on the way I want or need. This is incredibly rough to think about, especially when lonely/depressed.

I feel like I'm internethomeless. I tried all the other stuff out there but I keep walking past this place like it's the house I grew up in ( Read more... )

I check LJ and it's five people, two of which post only twitter feeds and flyers- which I already get via facebook and twitter.
I moved my internal blabbering someplace more public and private. I'm still here, though.
thinking about posting drawings. unsure.
in santa barbara.
hate it.
weather is great.
love,
alw

me: "I am SOoo excited to go home!"
coworker: "Yeah? Going to go home, rub one out, and go to sleep?"
me: "... you know, I might do that.".
me: "I'm probably going to just go straight to sleep"
coworker: "Yeah, sometimes it just takes too much energy"

Oh, coworkers, I love you so much.

I've been trying to set some things in stone for website stuff. Too many domain names and too many ideas, as always ( Read more... )

I am irritated by people who give up easily, lie, etc. I have a coworker- well, er, I guess I'm the boss in the situation ( Read more... )

Dallas,Texas; cousin's wedding, November 14th-17th ( Read more... )

I don't sleep well recently ( Read more... )

ugggh ( Read more... )

the thing I hate about 6:55 is this; I'm sitting outside the shop and I know that no one will be here to let me in at 7.