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changes of the spirit, mind and heart.....
a few days ago in the afternoon casey and i walked to starbucks to get some yummy coffee goodness. i'm usually not a starbucks kinda guy...i tend to go for the local coffee shops, but ever since a friend who works there got me addicted to the marble mocha maciado there's no turning back. it's pretty bad...i've been going once a day, but if i had ( Read more... ) -
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i feel like crying and i'm not entirely sure why. there's so much emotion running through my head and over my heart that it's a little hard to breathe at times. i feel like there's something really big brewing in my chest. i haven't felt this in a really long time. and it feels good. this good feeling is coupled with tons of spinning thoughts ( Read more... ) -
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i have had a wonderful 2 weeks. i'll write more about it later. for now...i'm off to a sox game. -
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it's absolutely beautiful outside today. i went for a really long walk this afternoon...just my ipod and i. i wore just an a frame without my post-surgery binder. it felt amazing. the sun was shining on my shoulders. the breeze was blowing over my skin between my chest and my shirt. i've been waiting so long to feel that. it was definitely ( Read more... ) -
all out of whack
i dunno what my deal is, but i've been in a funk all day. someone told me that they've heard that sometimes guys get depressed after they have chest surgery. i've never heard of that before, but who knows. i dunno if that's it or something else, but what i do know is my emotions are all out of whack. one minute i'm aggravated and the next i'm ( Read more... ) -
yay pirates!!
so before i left for nh to prepare for surgery, some friends and i had a pirate porn party in honor of my boobs departing forever. basically we sat around, watched casey's pirate porn dvd, drank tattoo rum and wore pirate hats anc mustaches. it was basically the most amazing thing i've ever been part of. here are some pictures...enjoy...
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no more boobies
so i'm back. obviously! hehe. everything went well. i'm in a lot less pain then i thought i would be. except the car ride home and every time i have to transfer. besides that it's just really uncomfortable and slightly painful at times. the worst part of it all was being intebated. i had to be awake because it was the safest way for me. ( Read more... ) -
a long time coming....
so much has been happening (mostly in my head) that i haven't been able to focus long enough to write it all down. where to begin? well, i don't think i've written this in here yet, but i'm having chest surgery june 20th!!...that's not even 2 days away. i have had to jump over so many hurdles just to get here. sometime in february after a 30 ( Read more... )