oh my god i feel like i'm going to throw up. i just remembered the dream i had last night. it was another repression image. i was being raped all over again, but this time by so many more guys..and my friends were there, and i was calling for help. but noone would help me. god i feel sick.

TearsLeaveTrails: your fiancee is shooting himself in the rain ( Read more... )

in all seriousness..rob and i are getting married. like in a week. anyone wanna come to the wedding?

ya know what's wicked fucking chill..when your "friends" date people they know you weren't over forever.

i think i suck at life sometimes.

i don't feel up to par today. my head hurts and my voice is very scratchy. i woke up for school this morning, but have absolutely no gas, so i couldn't get there. i don't know how i'm going to get gas in my car. plus, i have to go to the insurance company and give them "proof of how i get to work" whatever the hell that means, or they're going to ( Read more... )

i feel like fucking shit. and crying sucks. i like matt, and i fucked that up so much, even more lately. fuck me.

i'm about to go to bed..but i wanna write in here now while everything is fresh in my mind ( Read more... )

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i have no really slept yet. last night was veryyy dramatic. i love my girl friends though, for serious. looking back now..last night makes me laugh ( Read more... )