I have a fear. An totally anonymously not obviouslyness me fear. I'm a transman. I've known for years, known far long than I've been using the internet. But the thing is, online, I've always hidden it because it's not normal to people. I mean. A gay transman? Blasphemy. Lately, I came out to a few people, since I just can't hide it anymore, but... over the years, I've built up something of a reputation in fandom. As a person that I am not.
My fear is that I'll never be accepted for who I am, because of this image I've had for so long. This scares me far more than people I know off the internet knowing, because I can totally drop out of their lives. Find a new job. Move. But with the internet.. I can't. I just can't drop my name.
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My fear is that I'll never be accepted for who I am, because of this image I've had for so long. This scares me far more than people I know off the internet knowing, because I can totally drop out of their lives. Find a new job. Move. But with the internet.. I can't. I just can't drop my name.
It scares me.
It scares me so bad.
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second, it's normal to be scared, just remember that those who really, truly, care about you will stay by your side.
and baby, this is the internet, i think is easier to disappear from it than hiding forever irl. delete your journal, make a new one, cut ties, etc.
you said it yourself, "as a person that i am not", why be miserable with your reputation when you can be far more happier with who you really are.
remember, i love you.
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