theres nothing left

DONT FUCKING CRY DONT YOU FUCKING DAREE CRY
U NEVER FUCKING LOVED ME, YOU CANT EVEN ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM
OK
I DRINK
I SMOKE
I GET HIGH
IM AN ASSHOLE
OK
ACCEPT ME OR NOT, THATS ME
OK
OK????

FUCK
FUCK
I HATE THIS I HATE WHAT IM FEELING
FUCK LOVE I FUCKING HATE LOVING HER
I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE

I can taste your innocence ( Read more... )

ok so this is how it is ( Read more... )

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my life is torture now. i have spent too much time crying. i miss my mom, i miss my old life.. but i cant turn back now, im running, im running from the pain of this life. in all honesty i want to die, but i cant do it because it will hurt the few people that really care ( Read more... )

after days of being IGNORED by some friends, getting into fights with my mom every 5 minutes, getting put down and berated... i've decided to not run from my problems today.. im flipping out, i know it...i need to leave, i need a fucking vacation. seemingly once i got my drivers license i became my mother's slave, cuz i have to drive everywhere, my ( Read more... )

the past few weeks have been very high... but at the same time very low ( Read more... )

well, lots happened...
got arrested, went to court, got an acd... no big shit
graduated.
got high, a lot
chilled with the danny, lenny, and many others
chilled with dena a bunch

goin to the city with chris and ward.. like... right now and shit..
ill post more often... i promise

ok well my whole not eating thing is starting to catch up with me, im starting to sweat a lot, getting cold, getting sick, tired, weak....

god damn me having no money, god damn my parents for not caring... god damn me for not taking charity....foolish pride.

FUCK.