In order to get through it, I must experience it.

My counselor is pretty awesome.

She helped me notice a few things about how my thought process evolved throughout our conversation. I should note the stages in here, she said.

1. I began with somewhat suspicious observations of the situation.

2. It seemed when I tried to give them the benefit of the ( Read more... )

If I was the 'me' that I was two months ago, I may have died today.

I am so amazed by what this day has turned out to be. I feel like I've come into my own in so many ways. There is nothing holding me back anymore. My burdens are lesser. I don't want to let go of this feeling, and I will do whatever I need to to cling to it.

If someone wants to tell ( Read more... )

I haven't had a nightmare since my last entry. I feel a lot better. I did have a very interesting dream last night though!

It was a little bit scary, granted, because we were at the top of a ladder that was doubtlessly going to kill me if I fell. Thank god this didn't turn into a falling dream, I think I would have spazzed like no tomorrow. Well ( Read more... )

 It's disgusting.

Main point is far from the title. As usual.

I have been having nightmares. Horrible nightmares. I can't stop fucking having them, either, because I need to sleep in order to function, and I need to function in order to go to school, and I need to go to school in order to succeed in this fucking shit hole. Even still, what the fuck ( Read more... )

I've had such a week. It's been to complicated for its own good, but I'm alright. I'm extremely happy that I live on my own. I don't understand, though, how it's possible that the girl I'm hanging out with as of recently doesn't seem to... fully understand that I'm going through a transition period. I have formulated a list of reasons that I am ( Read more... )

I need to take a few moments here to remember my dear friend who has passed, Rachel... When we first met, she was that hyper kid my brother met off of Facebook status comments of a mutual friend. She and my brother dated for a long time, and I always thought they were the cutest couple. Sure they were annoying as hell, but I loved them and I won't ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to wonder how many billions of new journals I will make. Hm.

Well, I'm moving into my dorm in a few days, so packing is hell. But that's not what I really wanted to write about. I guess you could say I had a spiritual experience the other day, and some  people can laugh at it because it was brought on by watching 'Avatar'. (Yes, the ( Read more... )