ohhhh lovely mondays. perhaps the least day i look forward to. actually, that's not true. I think thursdays are the worst because you know you're so close to being done, but you still have friday to go. so mondays for me aren't that bad....it's just kinda chill/boring/meh.

wow. i sound super pathetic in my past few posts. so much DRAMA! ah! i can't ( Read more... )

I'm going to make it right this time.
no more being stupid. Learning patience. I fucked up big time.

but i have faith. this is my last chance to make it fucking right.

Is that someone you used to date
Why she's hanging around here, what's her story
Doesn't she know that its too late
That the party is over and the car is for me

Why don't u tell her what's been going on
Cuz she seems to be dreaming instead of just leaving
If you don't have the heart to fill her in
Then just step aside and let me lay it on the line

Cuz your ( Read more... )

fuck, i'm so torn. although i'm the one who broke up with him, i feel like i'm the only one suffering. wtf.
but i don't really understand if this is from just me having self-pity, and the fact that i'm lonely as hell and that i just want SOMEONE there? or is it because i really miss Josh?

People tell me that i'm still young, and that i should be ( Read more... )

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
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There is NEVER a right way to say good bye.

"I wish to be with Josh forever and ever, and have a happy life together"

This isn't right. I know it's not. My friends know it's not. Maybe he knows it too.

This is probably the hardest thing i've ever done. To realize, and tell myself that Joshua Martin Middleton is not "it". He is not my Mr.Right. That I fell in love with the wrong person.

When we first started dating, i thought it was great...he was older, he seemed ( Read more... )

I just realized how long 2 hours of non-class time is...... ULTRA LONG ( Read more... )

and so it begins. first day of sophomore year. yay.

I guess today went pretty smooth...I had the pleasure of having all three of my classes today, all doing the same exact thing....the wonderful thing called "lecturing about the syllabus" . oh so fun. Hey, i'd take that over exams any day. don't get me wrong.

So it's 8:00pm. Mackenzie's at work. I'm ( Read more... )