Why do I do this to myself....
Why do I overexaggerate my situations, and make myself feel worse about myself, my life and my situation. I hate to say it but such things make me consider go dying in a ditch. That is not me, I don't think like that but it seems like I've got major anxiety issues.
I isolate myself. I go into my random happy fits then when I'm left to my own devices--alone, I tend to depress myself. I depend on the company of my friends to keep my mind off of such things and away from the negative. But when they're not talking, when they're not online I tend to freak out a little.
This is getting worse and worse by the days progress. I need professional help, but I don't know where to start. I need my sister to help guide me and get me to where I need to go. Help me get this shit in order. I hate depending on people. I crave independence, but I can't have it because I'm broken. I'm broken and thrown into a pit with a little thread of yarn that keeps breaking every time I try to escape.
I isolate myself. I go into my random happy fits then when I'm left to my own devices--alone, I tend to depress myself. I depend on the company of my friends to keep my mind off of such things and away from the negative. But when they're not talking, when they're not online I tend to freak out a little.
This is getting worse and worse by the days progress. I need professional help, but I don't know where to start. I need my sister to help guide me and get me to where I need to go. Help me get this shit in order. I hate depending on people. I crave independence, but I can't have it because I'm broken. I'm broken and thrown into a pit with a little thread of yarn that keeps breaking every time I try to escape.