i feel trapped inside myself. Like i have a secret that needs to be heard but i cannot speak of it. i hate this feeling more than anything and i wish it would go away. i wish things were like they were in the begining. people were happy then.
-Kaila

I feel really emprty for some reason, i feel like there isnt anything that can get me out of this terrible mood, i wish steven were here, or atleast in auburn, his closness is comforting. I realy want to get out of this house. Have you ever been in such a bad mood you feel sick to your stomach. god i hate this, and to be honest i can't really say ( Read more... )

So, ive realized this summer is gonna suck pretty badly....kristi is gona be gone for most of it, ricky now has sarah so i dont see much hanging out there, I'm not sure about steven, but it would be cool to hang out with randy, lol maybe he can help me with my fishing style hahaha, hopfully i wont pass out though ( Read more... )

...well i am pretty confused, with alot of things that are going on right now...but im not going to get into them..actually i don't know why i even mentioned them...oh well...today hasnt been to great, yesterday was okay i hung out with kristi and we went to the mall and then went and got some movies to watch at my house. I had 2 finals today =( ( Read more... )

1. When you are sad - I will help get you drunk and plot revenge ( Read more... )

Today was a pretty blah day...Been sick..same old same old. Schools almost out and its gonna be june tomarrow! yuck its still freezing outside! i bet we wont have a summer untill september..and we will have an ultra long summer ( Read more... )

not much to talk about, prom was last night, and when steven and i went to pick up his tux, i saw a few friends there, and they ask if we were excited about going to prom, and i wanted to cry when i told them that it wasnt me who was his date... Last night i stayed in my room, looking out my wondow untill i fell asleep, ricky stayed with me to make ( Read more... )

why does it seem like nothing can go right, it seems like nothing with steven will become write again, nothings the same, the hugs, the kisses i dont get, the way he says i love you, its all gone, and im wondering if it will ever come back.
steven likes porn..oh god..and he wants it all day long in his pants
just kidding..or am i?
~kaila

I lowerd myself to nearly
the deepest depths
never quite hitting the bottem
with hopes of someday flying
high beyond the sun,

Waiting now in midstream
to be swept by the currents
hurled downward against the rocks
or
be gently floated to the waters edge
and dried by your love.

I hate when im bored!
~kaila