i no longer have any aspirations of playing the drums ever again. like i seriously give up...there's no way i could ever be good enough to play like you. you have such natural talent and you work so hard to get where you are. i just can't do it. even if i had the natural talent to be that good there's no way i could devote that much time to it... ( Read more... )

i'm both enfuriated and extremely hurt. i didn't think any one person could do such a hurtfull thing. i still love all of my friends and i don't want any of them to think differently of me for what i am doing. just respect the fact that it's what i have to do. i've never felt so betrayed in my life. i'm not sure if i can ever trust anybody ever ( Read more... )

i'm going to pull a lauren on this one and talk about hair... i think i'm going back to all brown. i'm getting tired of all the blonde streakness.....or maybe i'll go all black again. i don't know.

me and my cousin played a game of risk for 2.5 hours. and it's still not over. haddenfield was supposed to play at the relay for life at 11:30. we showed up at 10 to set up. that's what they told us to do. we didn't end up going on until 1:30. we played 2 songs and they kicked us out. bullshit. plus i had to cut my visit with lauren short to go to ( Read more... )

school is almost out, thank god. and i might pass all my classes. i got a dandy new phone, bryan found it in the street. and lauren fox rules all.

i am the biggest idiot. i find the one good thing in my life, something makes me genuinly happy, and i let it go. now i have no chance of ever retreiving it. my heart is broken, and it's entirely my own fault.

if you want to be my friend, then be my friend for who i am. i'm not going to change so don't try to change me. i'm a real friendly guy am willing to be friends with just about anybody. but if you try to push your ideals and values on me and make me a different person, i don't even want to bother with you. another way not to earn my friendship, is ( Read more... )

ok so cole barrier died sunday morning. iuno what to think. i wasn't close to him realy, in fact i didn't like him too much. and don't take that the wrong way, i'm not trying to bash on him or anything, i just didn't like him. it's a tragic thing that he had to die so young. i just hope this opens the eyes of all the people who do drugs. that maybe ( Read more... )

things are happy. the bands doing good. in fact we've had to turn down shows. make what you want of that but i think it means we're doing good. hopefully we'll go into recording soon. i can't wait for that. and possably, a tour over spring break. that would be nice. i have no complaints right now. my girl search continues but i'm not in any real ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!!