Utopia Lost (Kevin/Nick)
He was the very essence of forbidden fruit.
His presence had its own sweet fragrance; his smile was like biting into a peach. There was nothing about him that was even remotely bitter. There was nothing about him that could keep me from reaching into the tree and securing my own doom.
It’s not surprising to me that he followed. I offered him a bite, and it didn’t shock me to watch him bite into it, his eyes forever locked on mine. He was going to fall with me, and I don’t know if it was because he was sorry, or because he wanted to stay beside me.
I don’t know when he became my very own serpent, writhing into my life and twisting himself up around me, begging me to do what was so strictly forbidden. When my mouth found his for the first time, he didn’t taste anything like I expected. He was too sweet, too perfect, and I was falling hard. I was finding my sin in him and, by the way his fingers tightened in my hair, I knew he was going to come with me.
And, our breaths, harsh in the middle of these dark knights, mingle together like the juice that ran down our chins. I push against him, and he throws his head back, and that pale neck in the moonlight - I can practically see the knife I’m holding against his throat. One more push, and I’m drawing blood. One more, and he’s crying out as I kill whatever I could save of him.
He has never held it against me though. He’s never blamed me that Eden is no longer ours. With my head on his chest, I can hear his heart’s slow beating, my snake, my fruit, the death of me, and what’s left of my life. He doesn’t seem to care that I’m all he has now.
His mouth is red like pomegranates, and I’m never surprised by how sweet he tastes. I am human. I make mistakes. In his divinity, he forgives me.
To find my humanity, I had to take a bite of that forbidden fruit. Now there’s no going back.