I suppose I should actually use this from time to time. This is actually just a post because Amy is never on when I am and I damn well miss her. :( The End.

I slept too long demmit.. Got from home to Chinatown in about 5 min.. and was still late.. arrrghh

I love hearing her voice in the morning..

Amazing.. As you may or may not know, I have been sick for the last few days. For some strange reason when I woke up I was in an intense amount of pain. And when I say intense, I mean bring you to your knees twisted sick kinda pain. After doing everything short of throwing myself off a bridge to make the pain stop, I decided that I would just ( Read more... )

I'm never going to get better.. Im sitting here completely zoned.. why am I even looking at this monitor.. I should be sleeping, but the pounding in mah head keeps me awake.. I would consider doing some work, but the pounding drowns out all such thoughts.. Mah head is a battleground..

Ok, fine then, I will continue to post in this thing, thanks in full to Amy bothering me about it constantly throughout the day.. Its good to be missed I guess ( Read more... )

I suppose at some point I should start posting in this thing or get rid of it.. You shall have my decision by midnight.. blah blah blah

Sometimes I get the feeling i did something wrong that I don't even know about.. Or worse its just something you didn't do right, but you can sense the change in someone.. feel them pulling away from you. Clinging will make it worse, you tell yourself quite logically, but cant make yourself stop. Even when you know they are bad for you.. You are ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like your at the very center of the universe and all life is revolving peacefully around you? Me neither.. But I've felt raw, tired, spent and utterly satisfied. That should count for something right?

I've always been one to let things run their own way for way too long. I let them drag on to long past where any normal human would have shut down from pure angst. I also have a tendency to torture myself with things I cant have.. Some I want more than others.. Even those things I realize rationally I will never ever obtain. I also have a tendency ( Read more... )