in which holly attempts an lj cut for the first time in years
it doesnt take much to impress me. this is because i havent had the most thoughtful boyfriends in the past. none of them have ever given me a flower or stupid piece of jewelry or a song. this wizard of a boy snuck his way in too, too quickly because he knows the tricks and i ate it up because of my lacking past experiences. i am sad that it happened too quickly. people at work ask me, have you defined the relationship yet? he found me on a dating website im pretty sure everyones intentions were pretty well defined to begin with, what else is there? i like taking it slow with new boys, not because i am a prude (although i am) but because i like to savor that first part. that teenage feeling - NC. when youre not sure if they like you back and your hearts are beating real fast and someone better kiss someone soon or else.
my relationship with josh never got past the honeymoon phase.
i didnt really get to savor teenage feeling phase with ted because i was lying to my friends (yes, you) about our relations and the guilt pangs were distracting. when i think about it, how did i ever end up making out with that kid? not like a retrospective, ew he is like a brother to me now how weird, but like...i have a wicked strong memory for that kind of stuff but i cant picture it for the life of me. i kept a detailed word document journal of our first few encounters, but i'd rather just not revisit it i guess.
girls at work also talk about stuff i do not understand and probably will never understand, because i have never been in a "serious" relationship. like they were bitching about how their sigfigs should just know to wash their cars or pack their lunch for work, why do they have to remind them to do these things?
like are you joking
perspective, perspective
did it work?