Oh, that's it.

[banzaisebastian]

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[enigma_shadow1]

I applaud you for having the guts to do this.

[banzaisebastian]

♥ Thanks!

[drachexrebirth]

when I originally was going to reply to this I tried to quote it. It looked like shit and felt fake so while this may not cover everything you've said, here's just a bit from me. I'll admit tho most of you reading it probably know already it's me she's referring to. Thanks, actually, no sarcasm intended, for posting this public. I didn't have the balls to do it and I wish I could've, might've prevented it from getting this bad or maybe that's just my self loathing attitude I don't know. Before I get to my main bit, let me set my version of the record straight

[drachexrebirth]

Yes, I did use you for that and yes I admit it. It was wrong of me and I figured out about mid February that it can push people you care about more than anything else from you further away from you in a faster method than anything else in the whole damn world. So, for the most part, I've stopped it. I bring up things with friends now that are things I've tried desperately to fix on my own. In truth? the three people I tell everything don't know my frustrations with this. I did tell Scarlet a bit of it because I was looking for insight, I went to him before Asty and before Dani to try and get ahold of you because you either changed your S/N and didn't give it to me or MSN somehow deleted you from my contacts [which actually does happen, it's a bug in the system that can wipe the entire buddy list when you transfer from a PC to a Mac on the WLM server] and I was not able to get ahold of you. I never added your aim because you never gave me permission to and yeah, that was probably bad on my part but when I went to those three people the

[drachexrebirth]

I was trying to get information, information I'd tried to get from you without involving other people but when that failed I decided to try and get the information from the people you WERE talking to. You accused me of talking about you behind your back. Yes, I was, but I wasn't trying to talk smack or be aggressive and be like 'loll I hate you' because I don't. I've been frustrated since the 10th of February when you just sorta vanished off the radar because I can't figure out what's so bad about me or what's so lacking with me that makes you not want to talk to me. I wasn't thinking it was malicious because that isn't the type of person you are but I was absolutely certain that I wasn't high on your radar screen of people you would go out of your way to talk to and I wanted to know why so I could improve on it

[drachexrebirth]

This brings me back to the point of 'well I really can't be all that close to you if you don't even fucking talk to me