Still. :) I'm happy seeing Joel no matter what. I think about him all day and I can't wait to cuddle you in our bed. You have been my dream for two and a half years and I just love you. I love everything about you and I just want to love you forever!!!

I want to shit out my heart.

Joel was in my family for a day and now my mom worships him because he made 500 pie crusts for her. Everyone she's talked to on the phone she has told them about Joel making pie crusts for her. Joel also made the most beautiful blueberry pie ever. I'll put pictures up when I have more energy/time ( Read more... )

I am afraid all my plans for life are going to fall apart. I was reading a Washington University thing tonight and it was really tempting.

It's so hard to get in the habit of going but I looove going. I love the feeling of accomplishment when I'm done. I'm sweaty and a hot mess but I love it.

I'm two blinks away from crying. My nose is fucking runny and I feel as important as a piece of shit. I miss Kalah. I'm in a really weird mood and I'm feeling really alone and pissed off. I just don't know what to do. I hate my family. I hate sitting silent alone in my house all day because it would kill my dad to do fucking anything with me. What ( Read more... )

:D It was aweeessooommeee! My back started hurting really badly so in the middle of the Casualties playing I went to the back of the room and sat on a chair with a mom who was probably waiting for her child. Right after Joel left to go back to the crowd everyone decided the area I was sitting at was where they should group to take their shirts off ( Read more... )

I'm a senior!


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I'm mad at everything.  My sister slept in until 4 pm. I slept until 5:30 am. My mom sleeps later than I do and she goes to bed sooner. I'm pissed off. I have no idea where my dad is and my mom is all pissy. She's mad that she's doing all the work for their freaking mortgage burning party but she's not going to tell my dad, she's just going to be ( Read more... )

I'd like to start off by saying my iTunes is on shuffle and it's playing a lot of hard punk and I am totally in the mood so I am loooovvving it. :D

Anyways, I hate not having a job. I'm so sad every time I think about my bank account. My parents haven't told me if I'm getting my dividend yet and they come out TOMORROW! What is this nonsense! I don't ( Read more... )