The only thing PT does for me is hurt my arms while I continue to miss Nicole!

God, if I have to carry a 25 pound rock for a mile and a half again it will be too soon. :|

PS: <3 Nicole

Without regular contact with her, the drama in my head is dying down and I'm pretty much just repeating things in my head or writing down things I never got around to yet. It's kind of comforting in a way, and kind of depressing in the other; nearing the end of a book that context clues suggest end one way when you just wish in those last few ( Read more... )

I don't want her back. Not until after the Marines, anyway.

I'm gonna let that one sink in on it's own. I said it before I really realized what I meant, so I gotta absorb that before moving on. That's all for today, I guess.

MistressJaneDoe (6:22:23 PM): im bored. tell me a story ( Read more... )

threesideddie (11:37:48 AM): saved by a bat ( Read more... )

[Edit x 2:Okay, I'm going to put a real post here. None of this self-sorrowful tripe ( Read more... )

It is difficult. It does not to be any more descriptive; it refers to as much as it can refer to ( Read more... )

And it wasn't intentional, of course. She never meant to hurt me. It just IS the universe being a hostile dousche. This way I don't get to be indignant and righteous, as I am wont to do, but I still win this way cause that means there's still something to be affectionate towards. And maybe I'm being retarded for believing her, but I guess I'll ( Read more... )

[Edit: This entire post was stupid, so I'm just going to leave this in its place as a reminder; He will never love her the way I love her. The more this burden increases, the more my resolve does as well. He left his last girlfriend for Nicole because, well, she sucked and he gave up! And emo reactions are simply a reasonable product of my ( Read more... )

I find it rather backwards, although I understand precisely why; several days can go by without a post, maybe a week, when all sorts of interesting things are happening to me every day (dlab test to name a one,) but I have one stupid dream about her and then all of a sudden the need to transcribe the thoughts is paramount as they slowly waft out ( Read more... )