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[barr00m_hero]

leigh allen white, you did yourself a great disservice by reading that.

what the hell is my problem? i can't live for the present moment. only in the past, dammit. it is really pissing me off. it's seriously stressing me out right now, the fact that i can't let these things go. perphaps a little Chopin + some reflection will help me out.

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[ripped_undies]

i agree with what you wrote there bud, i've been going thru i guess you could say the same thing you are going thru. but mine is kinda retarted becuase its on and off and i guess a tad different. i want to let go of this one thing that i know isnt mine to hold on to anymore but i cant, i cant and i frustrated myself to no end. i think that maybe if i hold on to this i can fix it but deep down inside..i cant, like you said whats done is done. dont get me wrong i've tried fixing, i've tried understanding "it" but i cant. in a way i know that i cant honsetly say that i will ever let go of that but i cant at least try to concentrate on now because i know that i cant let it go....so i guess in the past three days i've had little sleep thinking and thinking, whats wrong with me? why do i have to think about this now? why now? but the best i came up with was..to just hold on to it and hope that one day i'll grow up and be able to look at it as a happy cherished memory that helped me grow, theres nothing wrong with you becuase well evryone

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[saxbehavior]

i went down the self discovery road and i almost tried to kill myself. i am so serious. i understand whats up. but look at the supports you have...i had noone i could talk to about my problems around me and imagine what your going threw plus adding no family...at the time, no friend would listen to you or even care at all. i was mad at God. i was contiplating suicude for 4 weeks and got close 2 times...it is not a fun time. but my mistake, was hardly telling anyone about it. you worry about maming people worry...well thats what friends are for. to help you worry less....so make me worry talk to me. i love you.

[skaninja87]

Leigh You rock face, self discovery can be very unfun. I know how that goes. But you feel better about it in the end.

Take it easy, and when Chris and I come back we will all watch the sixth sense.

Matt