I don't know why I do this to myself. I spend so much time thinking of things that I can't really figure out. Perceptions of reality, defining reality, is there a reality? It's enough to drive someone insane. If I keep this up I'm gonna blow a fuse in my brain. I think that's why I drink so much, that way at least I'm too stupid to think about ( Read more... )

I've started working on songs again. I've come to the conclusion that I'm extremely horribly sucky at writing song lyrics. I just can't do it anymore. I guess I'm gonna have to add vocalist/lyricist to the list of band members. I do know that I wanna have a second guitarist this time around or keyboards. I wanna do something different. I ( Read more... )

Oh look at that, I got an icon now too. I'm on fire! Or I'm maybe just a little bored. Lol. Calvin and Hobbes was proably my favorite comic strip of all time. So I had to pay homage. Besides I jump out of my skin about 8 times a day. Got nothing else to say, somebody comment on my jounral. I need friends, I need friends!! I NEET FRIENDS ( Read more... )

Oh yeah, I made my Journal look different. Hot stuff! Somebody stop me I'm outta control. Actually I'm dork cuz I don't know how to make it do that music and mood thing at the bottom. Anyways I'm listening to Bright Eyes: Digital Ash in a Digital Urn. It's pretty alright. Something different, something new. Yeah, so umm...

Peace, Love, and

So umm, yeah I'm trying to think of something to write. I'm all of wit, but I've had so much coffee my fingers are plunking away at the keyboard anyways. And yeah...that's something. I have this hysterical attack of the giggles. Yet I still feel like I'm bored and dreaming.

So yeah, I was trying to remember what the point to that whole little exercise in creative frustration. I still haven't figured it out. It was something like if we're all stuck in an infinite space going nowhere the only hope we have is to realize that we are only as big as the connections we make. Reach out and touch someone.

Peace, Love, and

The universe is a vast place. Bigger than our simple minds can comprehend. I know we have the concept of infinity to try and wrap our meager brains around, but seriously most people don't really have a decent comprehension of just what that means. Imagine if you will. You seem to be stuck in the middle of a hall way. The walls are white the ( Read more... )

(Orginally written at 2am but was unable to post ( Read more... )

So there we were eating our expensive Valentine's dinner at an cushy table. I was starting to feel stuffy in the suit I was wearing. My dad's suit. I broke my unbreakable promise for her, I'm wearing a tie. The music is unbearable, some kind of soft jazz remake of every pop song ever invented. I almost gag when they do a version "Livin La Vida ( Read more... )

I don't hurt anymore, it's a blessing and a curse. Thick skin doesn't let the good things in either.