I'm supposed to be happy...

Dec 23, 2005 21:22

And half of me is. Half of me is genuinly and truly happy. And the other half feels lost. And I wish that I could blame it ALL on my mother, but not all of it is her fault ( Read more... )

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oh blair myjournal12 December 23 2005, 19:48:53 UTC
blair, you and i have so much in common, its kinda weird. i dont think by lookin at us you would think that we are so similar, but we are, in our personalities we are very simiilar. i think, maybe not during the break because ill be gone for the next week or so, that i will call you one day, we can go and do something together. well talk it up. mmhmm...sound good?

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mochajoy13 December 25 2005, 09:46:59 UTC
Oh, Blair Blair Blair!

I love you so much. God, nothing's quite the same as the junior high friends from way back when. First off, you are such a liar about not being smart enough. Don't ever say it again-I'm serious. Everyone's floating around, and exploring different people and groups, and the only reason we're not seeing each other as much as we should (or did) is distance. Time distance, mostly. Too much stuff going on, too little time to just reconnect.

I wish I was in N-Ville now. When I get back, we really have to do something. Spill our guts like we used to. Love you, love you, love you; hang in there, and we'll get back together. It's the magnetism of old friendships. It just happens.

Miss you, and I hope your Christmas was wonderful, in spite of and because of everything going on.

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sprinter731 December 30 2005, 20:34:07 UTC
Blair, you are one of the sweetest people I know. And I was reading this entry, I felt a pang of emapthy because I know exactly what you're going through. In fact, I know there's a lot of people who AREN'T going through this sort of thing which is why it makes it a whole lot harder to cope with. But now that I've finally pulled myself out of the hole of depression (because I did suffer from depression at one point, and it's no peach) I tend to look on the brighter side of things. There's alot that I don't want to know about my family either (i.e. financial problems, how my parents try their hardest to make ends meet, etc.) But I'm the baby in my family and I have to learn how to deal with a lot more information than my older siblings had to deal with ( ... )

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mothers and living rooms anonymous January 5 2006, 08:39:30 UTC
it sucks that you've been feeling low. a resolution to stay friends with people is a good way to start the new year.

why don't you take a couple free hours and start cleaning the living room, which will make your mom happy and possibly persuade her to let you go to lunch with your friends? you'd be able to fix two things at once: a messy living room and misunderstandings between you and your mother.

ps it's not your mom's fault. it's likely she's feeling just as overwhelmed as you are. IT'S NOT YOUR MOM'S FAULT.

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