Haven't updated in a while. My x-mas break was okay, I finally got the CD Player i've been asking for and the Disturbed CD!!! Jessie seems to be doing okay, though we haven't had an actual conversation in over two weeks. Whatever.

Life is odd. 'Nuff said.

Me and Jessie finally talked and things are now cool between us. I know we'll still be great friends and that makes me happy. Just know, Jessie, that (hopefully) when our paths cross relationship-wise, I always have place in my heart for you and you will always be welcome back with open arms (heart with arms, how cute :) My religious side has now ( Read more... )

Maybe I was wrong about my finding God more would help me and Jessie. I don't know if that truly would help things. I think I at least need to do this for me. In the void that Jessie has left in my heart, I think God might fill that for me and help me create new space for Jessie. But as Elise told me earlier, "You can't half love God, either you do ( Read more... )

I just stumbled upon a quote that I really feel is very profund considering what I'm going through with Jessie ( Read more... )

I'm feeling okay today, it was a kind of awkward morning though. People at the couch talking about all of the constant drama going on between many couch members (whom will go unnamed), wears on you a little. I did the theory homework that I had to make-up because of my car running out of gas on Monday. It took me almost two hours to do it and that ( Read more... )

Hey people. My first entry. Exciting. I got up around 11:30am today and i'm still tired as hell. I'm still happy about getting my car back, it still needs a tune-up though. And I'm still thinking about how lonely I felt I Friday at the Freeman Center after Wind ensemble performed and how much I miss Jessie. I think it's kind of odd how much that ( Read more... )