i feel useless.

[bastardlove]

i just want to help. so she doesn't relapse...i know that word sounds so institutional...i just want to help. shes holding out, and i know she wants to do it. and its building up on her...i just hope she can handle it. i wish she would just let me help her...but i suppose its hard to let somebody in, when you're so used to being alone with your problems...i was always alone...but so desperate for attention and compassion that i'd let anybody in. i guess we're all different.

i just want to help you love. maybe i am over-reacting. maybe i am wrong. i hope i am wrong. you're just tired.

i don't know why i typed like i wrote this for other people...its so directed at you lol. i guess it just feels less personal that way. i love you. and i am here for you. you know that.