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john learned how to play this song on acoustic geeeetar ..
and sings it to me all the time.

It's about time that I came clean with you
I'm no longer fine, I'm no longer running smooth
I thought that I found myself under something new
Just one more line I repeat over and over again
Till I'm blue in the face with a choking regret
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all i do now is get high and go to work and play videogames and be with john

for the past couple of weeks i've been broke out of my mind and johns been paying for EVERYTHING for me.
 i feel bad. i swear we have seen every new movie that has been out this month.
 this past weekend i went with him to a family thing and 
i love his auntfrom albuquerque ( Read more... )

i wish i felt nothing. i wish i didn't live here.
i wish a lot of things were different.
i wish i lived closer to cassi. i miss her so much.
i wish things would go back to the way they used to be with my brother.
i do need a lot of people but most of all i need him.
he wrote me this email this weekend when he was out of town and we were fighting.

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fourth of july.
calls at 5 in the morning from all my loves telling me they got home.
everyone loving and meeting my oliver. 
leaving tomorrow at 8 in the fucking morning.
waking up early this whole month.
things will soon be going back to normal. UGH.
going back to california in aug. its been a while.
weird thing is am fine with it.
missing lisa a lot. 
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before i left to colorado i had his pillow with me and it smelt so much like him ( Read more... )

have the house to myself until sunday ( Read more... )

this trips been amazing ( Read more... )

i leave for the aeroport in 10 fucking mins ( Read more... )