first of all i want to appologize for my behavoir lately. thank you to my friends who have been here for me. i'm not getting online for a while. i need time to make myself alive again. i've really lost any sense of living. enough about that. someone call and make me be sociable. come get me and make me get of the house. i'm sorry to you my best ( Read more... )

once again last night sucked. i let my alcohol talk more than my brain...that's never good. Triumph of Gnomes stayed with me last night, they're fun guys. This morning my angel showed up and put a smile on my face for the rest of the day. hopefully tonight i will be eating with a person who could be considered a brother in law and his brother :) ( Read more... )

i did something stupid last night. it was uncontrollable. It won't happen again. i'm going to lie down. my head hurts my body hurts and my eyes burn.

this is the beginning of the rest of my life...this right here

i fucking need help right now please. please

I was browsing through all of my old friends from fl myspace's and ya know I'm really glad I did move here. They're all just drug dealing losers now. I mean that's how I used to be too but I'm glad I got out of that scene.

I have something to look forward to tonight. I don't know how it will go.

man this bitch stole my picture!!!

http://www.myspace.com/ashleyeatsaids

wtf she can't use my pictures!

send her messages make her feel as pathetic as she is

x girl in grey x: sup
just aimin: sup
x girl in grey x: sweet myspace pictures
just aimin: k?
x girl in grey x: who took your first one?
just aimin: its not me its one of my sisters friends and i ( Read more... )

i don't feel well, physically. This house is fucking lonely. I wish he was here to keep me company and make me feel better. what have I done? I want to be loved out loud.

Work is going to blow today so hard. man fuck this i'm trying to make things at least decent. i feel so betrayed. I gathered up enough stolen changed from my parents to buy Simon food. I'm out of ciggarettes. I'm in a fucking terrible mood. I hope i get in a wreck on the way to work ( Read more... )

i have done nothing but fucking love you. you return it by having other girls sleep in our bed last night. i guess that was the last straw. i don't know why i continue to care so much. i am never shown any compassion. it really hurts. it hurts when the one you love so dearly can't make time to take you out on a date. can't go to the park with you ( Read more... )

i'm not being strong. i don't know what to do. simon is home, where are you?