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A- Available? Free to good home
A - Age: 16
A - Annoyance: Being ill
B - Best Friends? Chlo, Em, Kay, at times Kay’s fiancé Steve and the leprechauns in my head... THEY’RE REAL, REAVER!
B - Bar: the Barge, Gillingham. Used to be the Postie, but I been barred.
B - Birthday? 29th April
C - Celebrity: Hahahahaha! I am by default! I know many people in bands! … Granted, they’re just local bands…. But shhh.
C - Car You Drive: Pfffft. One day, it will be a Triumph Daytona (bike) But not yet.
C - Cat: Tortoiseshell
D - Dead Pets Name: Fred, Ben, Jerry
D - Dads Name: James Earnest
D - Dog: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
E - Easiest person to talk to: Rob, Chlo, Steve, Rhona
E - Eggs: Unfertilised.
F - Favorite colour? Black, pink, purple, white
F - Food: Ice cream… Although I shouldn’t
F - Foreign Slang: Erm… Schweinhund!
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: BEARS
G - God: Is a dead gay male.
G - Good Time: With the girls last night at Bekie’s or at the Barge with Steve, Rob, Dan, Chlo, Alena Kay and my momma.
H - Hair Color: brown with growing out highlights
H - Height: 5ft 3ish
H - Happy: Meh. Everyone else is, so I will be too. *jumps around*
I - Ice Cream: Cookie dough!!!
I - Instrument: Guitar and bass really crappily, and I sing really well when I’m not ill.
I - Idol: I don’t really have idols. I want to be like my mum, cos she’s the coolest, but… Everyone who’s ever known me has touched me in some way.
J - Jewelery: Haha! Where do I start! Five rings, two bracelets (one being my Luntara band that broke, so I improvised) Three ordinary earrings and one belly bar in my ears and random lipbar stuffs.
J - Job: Fort Amherst - Yay for scaring the fuck out of people!
K - Kids names will be: Boys - Robert, Daniel, Nate, Girls - Coral, Reyanne, Rochelle, Chloe
K - Karate: Naaaah… Not for me, cheers.
L - Longest Car Ride: Six hours on the way to Devon… >.<
L - Longest Relationship: Three months… Then he died. Meh.
M - MILK FLAVOR: Strawberry
M - Mothers Name: Bridget Caroline
M - Movie Last Watched: Daredevil - Good in place, sweet in others, crap in most. And the CGI? Don’t even get me started.
N - Number of Siblings: One blood sister called Hannah, and many many friends that I class as close to me as Han is.
N - Northern or Southern: South
N - Name: I like the name Chloe… But my name is Josie.
O - ONE WISH? : To see all my friends happy… And to find a cure… Not saying for what. Only one person on here knows, and if hse reads this, she’ll know what for.
O - One Phobia?: I have three! Spiders, scarecrows and storms
P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Separated.
P - Part of your appearence you like best: My eyes or my hair… when it’s clean
P - Part of your Personality you like best: All of it! I love me!
Q - Quote: KC: “It’s five to clock!”
Q - Quick or Slow?: Depends what it is…
R - Reason to smile: Luntara gig 24th! Barnehurst Golf Club! All must be there!
R - Reality TV Show: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
R - Right or Left: …. *holds hands up to check* Erm….
s- song: Ahaha! 1) Dream Evil - The Book of Heavy Metal. 2) Dragonforce - Through the Fire and the Flames. 3) Coheed and Cambria - Welcome Home. I’m not a metal chick at all…
S - Sex: Yes please!
T- Time you woke up: I not slept yet!
T- Time for bed: Meh
U - Unknown Fact about me: I’m nursing a heart so broken I don’t think it will ever heal.
U - Unicorns?: They’re real!!!
V - Vegetable you hate: brussels
V - Vegetable you love: raw carrots, celery
V - View on Politics: I take it at school… Tony Blair is a twat… George Bush needs to be shot… We all need me for PM!
W- Worst Habits: Smoking, feeling numb when it comes to my father
W- Where are you going to travel next? Erm…. To the toilet. *dashes off*
X - X-Rays: Ankles many many many times. Chest quite a few. Head a couple.
X - X-Rated Porn: Erm… Me? Of course not! *mumbles to self* I thought I destroyed that…
X - X-tra special someone: No one right now, except Chlo.
Y - Year you were born: 1989
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Z - Zoo Animal: PENGUINS!
Z - Zodiac: Taurus… full of bullshit.
... Yeah. I was bored.
Dan's just come online... I think my heart about stopped.
One second...
I hate men. I HATE MEN! Men fucking suck.
I hate falling in love. I hate even liking someone a lot.
Dan's met someone else. And here was me thinking I'd seduce him on Friday. Fucking male. I miss him so much, and I love him... But that's life, I suppose. And... It's even harder at the moment... But I'll get onto that soon.
I spent the night at Bekie's (Scarecrow's bitch) last night. It was fun. They hid Ant's Rizla in her bear... Then we had to get it out and hide it somewhere else, so I put it in my bra... then he went into my bra and got it. It was funny.
And that's the thing that makes the whole thing with Dan harder... I really like Ant... I did even when I was with Dan... But I wouldn't let anything happen then.
Only thing is... Ant likes one of my friends. I feel stuck. I made them talk last night... And Ant said they kissed but she said they didn't... I wasn't sure who to believe and still am not. I just.. I dunno.
I spent ages outside in the back garden last night, sitting on the steps, watching the stars, crying and thinking. Then Steve came out, told me that it was a noble thing I had done, given up my happiness for everyone else, and he gave me a load of advice.
... And he also told me that him and Kay used to think I had a crush on him... o.O
Any doubts at all that I might have had about Steve are now well and truely out the window. He is such a sweet heart. He gave me big big hugs, told me to stop letting the things I really really want go, told me to start thinking of myself, because no one else would, and made me come inside and cuddle up to him.
He said it was really rather sweet, because last night was the first time he'd seen how nice I can be if other people want things that I want too. It was also the first time he'd seen me cry out of mental pain and heartache. I don't cry that often... And never in front of men anymore. Not since my Dad left.
I still haven't totally forgiven him and Kay for having sex on my living room floor... But that's one of those thing I just gotta deal with. It's happened. Get over it, Josie.
At least you know love still exists.