I realized fully today that the fact that i do everything with my left hand except write doenst make me ambidextrous. It makes me left handed, but was grown up being made to write with my right. its also partially for this reason that my handwriting with my right is absolute shit. However, my left is quite decent, though, slow, from lack of use. ( Read more... )

Through our bleeding we are one ( Read more... )

So my mom wont let me drive around because, its not safe to go that far yet...But, when the fuck will it be? I mean, its always, well you cant drive there because you havent before. How am i going to if she doesnt fucking let me? Im confused. I guess im going to just wreck and end up in the hospital if shes not in the car holding my hand along the ( Read more... )

I could write another long ass boring put-you-to-sleep entry about how i hate myself, but, i really dont feel like taking the time to vent on this. And besides, i dont hate myself right now, i just, dont want to be, at all...Blah

I have nothing more to say

Alone I sit, choking...And I want it to end so badly...I just want it to stop so terribly, so, desperatly...I feel as if im suffocating, drowning in my own thoughts and feelings...Things i can no longer escape, no longer put aside, or behind, or pretend to be innocent of...And i just want to let go, Im so tired of fighting it...I was so sure that ( Read more... )

So yea, i really dont know what to talk about. I cant stop thinking lately, about everything. I shouldnt have expected it to last. I mean really, i was an idiot to think that it could last for more than a few weeks. And im a failure too. Seriously considering starting meds again, though, i dont know which ones, as they all kind of sucked, but, o ( Read more... )

HAVE YOU EVER ( Read more... )

Right well, despite the fact that my past entry got um, something of a negative response that i didnt understand, i still dont care, and am going to continue my tribute by writing about my oldest existing freind. Eventually ill get to that, but, i dont have the time tonight, or the energy, and i need to get to bed, and clarify some things with him ( Read more... )

Im going to be very...open, in this entry, so try not to hold it against me too much. hahahaha. After reading something, i felt compelled to create my own rendition of the series of events that have led to the relationship i am in. Probably not the best idea on livejournal, but, I want to, and, its not like I have anything to hide, so here we go. ( Read more... )

If I could feel any more touched right now, I dont know how...