greatest friends ever. period. last two days have been really chill and fun. you dudes and the one dudette know who you are.

I have yet to decide which type of loneliness is worst. ive spent all week with friends, and no offense to them, but i feel so unfulfilled. i feel like every conversation i engage in is devoid of emotion and utterly pointless. i want to feel something deeper, just so I know its there. I can't sleep that much. I'm surrounded by friends, but I feel ( Read more... )

i felt it today. i felt the warmth. everything came together. it was one of the days that you feel like you can sit back and watch everyone. and everyone is happy. its the opposite of that feeling of floating through the day as an observer, which is the worst. im so happy. today was my moms birthday. school was fun. thanks jessica a for making sure ( Read more... )

damn...im getting so damn emotional. i walk around and im like..this could be the last time i do this, or say that at school. ill never be in high school again, and as happy as i am to go to college, it doesnt come close to overshadowing the utter sadness and emotional roller coaster that is the last week of school. ive become closer to bryan. hes ( Read more... )

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so weenie roast. here goes: we left at 1145, got there at 2. we had backstage passes and great seats. so we get there as alkiline trio is finishing. were watching em backstage. we walk around the carnival area, get some jamba juice cuz its fucking hot. then there was the sound mixing booth in the middle of the crowd and we saw this security dude ( Read more... )

so life has been crazy/nostalgic/sleep deprived/awesome/insert adjective here. saturday night was prom... fuckin brownies man. wednesday was career day which was fucking cool. making some business connections in the commercial real estate world ;). and we saw star wars at 12:01 thursday night. it was AMAZING. thursday was grad night at disneyland. ( Read more... )

it really saddens me that every time i get on the freeway i think for a moment that theres a possibilty that some one might be out there with a gun. and then i just accept it, and i justify it, saying well a piano can fall out of the sky and kill me, and that life is just a bunch of odds. but im not sure which is more sad... actually being scared ( Read more... )

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