just_muse_me - 11.8.2 - My Family
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Long as I can remember, my family's been Ma, Lucy and Nathan. Lucy and Nate's aunt and uncle were always real good to me growing up too. And then Luce got married and had kids and it was just...more family.
Getting down to it, though, it's just me and my Mom. Thing is...Mom parents were real strict from what she's said about them. They wanted her to be the perfect daughter, and she just wasn't. She couldn't just make it through like they did, so she took off. She was a teenager and it was the age of peace and love and all that shit. And Dad...I'm not so sure. Ma says he didn't have any family either, but she never really told me why.
So once Dad died it was me and Mom. She does love me and she does want what's best for me. It's not all her fault that she's got some real issues about Dad dying. It's not all her fault that ever since a cop killed him, she hates all cops. I mean...it's how I was raised. Don't trust the police, don't rely on them.
And then I met one...and I tried so hard to not trust him, to not rely...to not care. I failed. We've never claimed to be anything, but we love being around each other. We leave it at that.
I really shouldn't have told her what he did. I knew it would screw things up, but I hate keeping things from her. And she liked him. I know that she did. It wasn't enough, I guess.
Sure. I could drop him like she wants me to, make her happy, but...I don't want to drop him. And he doesn't want to drop me. We don't know what we're doing, what kind of relationship it is, or anything, but I'm gonna keep doing it. I'm gonna stay with him, and tell Ma I dumped him.
Everyone stays happy. Relatively.
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Long as I can remember, my family's been Ma, Lucy and Nathan. Lucy and Nate's aunt and uncle were always real good to me growing up too. And then Luce got married and had kids and it was just...more family.
Getting down to it, though, it's just me and my Mom. Thing is...Mom parents were real strict from what she's said about them. They wanted her to be the perfect daughter, and she just wasn't. She couldn't just make it through like they did, so she took off. She was a teenager and it was the age of peace and love and all that shit. And Dad...I'm not so sure. Ma says he didn't have any family either, but she never really told me why.
So once Dad died it was me and Mom. She does love me and she does want what's best for me. It's not all her fault that she's got some real issues about Dad dying. It's not all her fault that ever since a cop killed him, she hates all cops. I mean...it's how I was raised. Don't trust the police, don't rely on them.
And then I met one...and I tried so hard to not trust him, to not rely...to not care. I failed. We've never claimed to be anything, but we love being around each other. We leave it at that.
I really shouldn't have told her what he did. I knew it would screw things up, but I hate keeping things from her. And she liked him. I know that she did. It wasn't enough, I guess.
Sure. I could drop him like she wants me to, make her happy, but...I don't want to drop him. And he doesn't want to drop me. We don't know what we're doing, what kind of relationship it is, or anything, but I'm gonna keep doing it. I'm gonna stay with him, and tell Ma I dumped him.
Everyone stays happy. Relatively.
326