That's right, a treadmill. What is the significance of it? I am exactly in the same spot in my life from my last post. I have not advanced in any way. Actually, come to think of it, I may have reverted back to something of lesser significance. Well, Happy Holidays.

It is so crazy how amazingly my life is fucked up. This is just not how I planned it at all. I am drinking alone on a week night while I am unemployed with bills piling up. I am not in school like I wish I was. I am not contributing to society. I am just taking up air in this world with those people who are waste that I once couldn't stand...and ( Read more... )

WHAT DO I NEED TO DO??!?!!?!?! I AM SO LOST IN MY LIFE. HOW DID I EVER GET HERE? I SURE AS HELL DIDNT EXPECT MY LIFE TO BE SO CHAOTIC. THE FUNNY THING IS...NO ONE KNOWS.

I paid 3.26 a gallon for gas today. That is whas has stood out the most today. It's bad that these kind of thoughts consume my mind. I want my mind to dream and wander, but no it's stuck here. lame.

My bed, a cup of vodka, livejournal, and a good conversation. things are going great.

I am just giving a heads up. I have been thinking, and I am going to take a month off from everything. I will work, pay bills, and catch up on a lot of reading that I have been wanting to do. Because I have been working so much, I have not had time to spend for myself or to spend with my family ( the ones I want to see ). I am going to take the ( Read more... )

why the hell not? ha.

This is me typing from work. I am going to have the house tonight, but I really want to be out and have a good time. I hope it works out. Cristy is really good at making us have fun. But first things first, I have to finish work :(

Yeah that's today. Heather's sister had a surprise baby. It's crazy, she doesn't need it at all. She doesn't even take care of the child she has already. I want to have fun tonight. I hope I do. Call me.

My stomach hurts really bad. Thats where I hold my stress. I have a mid-term tommorrow but I will fail in a BIG way. My family has a magical way of making me think that I am always not doing or saying something right. January 01, 2007 I am out of here, but I am still sad/scared about it. How is that I can be the person who really tries to always do ( Read more... )