Tripping on the Green Fairy
You sat me down beside myself
To show me all the reasons I was wrong for you
Was this for real? It's hard to tell
'Cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into
I'm gonna overcome this paper heart and win this time
And all along, I should've known that this wasn't your dream, it was mine
I know you wanted me to give up this life to be
Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in
I was never good at goodbye
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So, this brain in my head
Can forget your face
When we were starting out, you believed in me without a doubt
You were the finest thing to happen to a boy like me
It's so much harder, now, I wanna try and tell you how
There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see
I was never good at goodbye
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So, this brain in my head
Can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead
Then make more mistakes
Today I couldn't stay awake
Feels like i'm drowning in this firewater lake
I won't be sleeping much tonight
It's not the same without you lying by my side
Right beside me
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So, this brain in my head
Can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead
Then make more mistakes
I know you wanted me
To give up my life to be
Everything I am, when you're the
Only thing that I can see
I'm sorry, but you're not the
The only one for me
You left me, here, beside myself
Left me with all the reasons I was wrong for you...
Haha my Sunshine Buddy that Schwabbie gave me for Christmas is bopping his head to Yellowcard. It's effing adorable. I love my Sunshine Buddy. It was the perfect gift. Zach, when he gave it to me, was like "It's a perpetual motion doll; it's always in motion. And I figured since you're in perpetual motion, it would be the perfect present." It made me laugh. I love it.
So my brother was being a little brat this afternoon with his stupid game and my parents were being all sympathetic and shit. It pissed me off but whatever. We played hearts and I won and Dad lost. He got the Queen three times and I managed to give it to him in one way or another every time he got it. Which made me smile. Anyway. Ummm....Vati made tacos for dinner. :) Yum yum. Then Mom and I went to Savages to pick up a deck of cards. Uh...yeah.
Aiden and my plans "fell through." I really didn't want to go. I was in a weird mood this evening - confused, upset, anxious, happy, sad, excited, hyper, tired...blah. I hate not knowing what I really feel and feeling like I have no control over my life. That's how I felt tonight; totally out of control of everything. It was just...bad. I was in a state of...hormones I suppose is the reason for it. I think everything is going to be okay.
I have to wake up at by 11 tomorrow =-O That is early for Sarah. Hmph. I should get a good nights sleep tonight because Anna, Alissa, and I are going to be up late tomorrow night. And, I should get back into the school mode. I have to work hard this trimester if I want to get into DA and stuff.
Karen went to Secret Window in Greenfield and supposedly there were a bunch of DA guys there that were really hott, so I sort of wish I went now haha. Well anyway. I'm being really shallow now. =\ Nick has a really effing hott Canadian friend (Canadians = sex) and he's a football player (football players = sex)...he's hott. I want him. He has a girlfriend though. And she's a senior. Pfft. I'm better (no not at all hahah). Haha Steffie has classes on her birthday cause it's on a Saturday and she has Saturday Classes next weekend. And all her classes that day suck. =( I feel bad for her. This year I DON'T have classes on my birthday for once in (well I was at Six Flags the first year cause it was on a Wednesday) three effing years - yes, I go to summer school. It's a blast, I can't wait.
Auto-Response from rocky8890: today's 3/26/04 and eaglebrook summer semester starts 7/4/04
bm scm m&m bb ed jc ah ap - good times
can't wait -- summer '04 -- lg
missin pom :'(
Awwww....
Way excited for the weekend. I'm gonna leave now. Bye.
xo
♥
It would have been a month today <3