well, thats that. the show is over and along with it went ballet. i can't say that i've gained much in the past 5 months of this new year, but i sure as shit am missing some big parts of my life these days. i guess necessities just change, or something.

SUPER SIZE ME

edit : the show starts at 8:00

i started on the painting for my wall. should be finished sometime in the next two weeks. made me feel good to be doing something like that ( Read more... )

you only hurt the ones you love. you only hurt the one who loves you.

i washed and dryed all my sheets and pillow cases with a tube of dr pepper chapstick. now they smell like melted wax and soda.

cheers,
bec

a girl's vibrator can only be her best friend for so long.

everyday it gets a little easier to live. everything in your life is so damned important until you really lose something. i'm trying my hardest to grieve. its so much easier now that i have so many people to grieve with. i understand that shit just isn't worth it you know. its never worth it.

"tired?" she said
"yeah," i said.
"tough week?" she said.
"yeah," i said.
"next week too, huh?" she said.
"yeah," i said.
"yeah," she said.

....and she was the first person to understand.

all i want is for something good to happen. i hate getting older. i hate feeling guilty, and responsible. fuck me.
The more this shit happens, the worse i feel for myself, when i don't deserve any pity at all.
i'm really going to miss him....if it wasn't for Mr Jordan, i wouldn't know how to pointe my toes. i just can't believe it.
yours,bec

got sent out of LAW today for laughing and talking. i must have sat in the hallway for a good 30 minutes. brian and kelly and kimmy all came by and talked with me...kept me nicely entertained. honestly, who does that? who sends anyone into the hall. just yell at me for christ's sake ( Read more... )

officer britton is here in my law class today to give kiddies breathalizer tests. DAMNIT, i knew i shouldn't have come to school drunk today! i always pick the absolute worst timing for everything.