so I figured my life is going in the wrong direction.
I told my mom I want nothing to do with her.
My love life is sooooo insane.
It makes me want to bleed.
My arms are covered in cuts.
my hand says "die"
My bi-polar disorder is very insane at the moment.
I need to blow something up.
I neeed a hug.
I need my friends.

Hanging out with TOny
Went to Maine for a week or so.
Went to the club.
Went into Boston with Tony
I spent 200$ on clothes.
Tony introduced me into a new person.
We hit off very well.
He's lying in my bed at the moment.
I'm really tired at the moment.
So later

I've left you all blind ( Read more... )

Went to a couple more parties.
Tonight club.
Tomorrow Maine tioll tuesday or wed.
Ummm...don't know if you can get in touch with me but try.
Yep.
Miss people.
I'm happy.
I cuddled in my bed with someone for the first time in a long time.
Best sleep ever.
He even called me later that night.
and we have plans yay!!

::Major Journal update ( Read more... )

1) Using band names, spell out your name:

B-beautiful mistake
R-rilo Kiley
y-yellowcard
A-akaline Trio
N-northstar

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?

No

3) What song makes you cry?

Mazzy Star "fade into you" it use to.

4) What song makes you happy?

"so Alive"-Ryan Adams

5) What do you like to listen to before bed?The sweet voice ( Read more... )

I can't slit my wrists.
I made my promise.
I have something to srtive for.
I just fear I'll never make it.

<3I don't know what to think.

on-line is such false hope.
I turn the wrong way again.
I'm sad.

I had a such a great time at the club ( Read more... )

ok me=nervous.

I have an appointment with Blaine Hair design school.
On monday, I am very nervous.
I applied to two places today for work.
I need a job.
Motivation what a good thing.

maybe if things go through, people will not look down on me.

butterflies.