I want to stay

Feb 05, 2009 20:15

I struggle ( Read more... )

yet i want to stay, omg i suck

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t_eyla February 6 2009, 04:40:13 UTC
See, I identify with both those characters, too. But I don't want to stay. I like running. Because even if you're running away from something, you're also always running towards something new, no matter if you want that or not.

I like new things. They're what make life interesting, and worth sticking around for. If I stayed in one place all my life, I wouldn't have anything to live for.

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beandelphiki February 7 2009, 16:56:53 UTC
That's an interesting way to think of it, but should you always run away? I'm just saying, I don't always want to run away...

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t_eyla February 7 2009, 19:46:36 UTC
I don't know, some things might be worth staying for. But generally, I think it's an either/or thing. At least it works that way for me.

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siegeengine February 6 2009, 05:29:40 UTC
man, it sounds like you are really down ( ... )

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beandelphiki February 7 2009, 17:26:27 UTC
If we are on hard times... if we're off our meds... if we're hyper-busy... then the slightest thing can become an extenuating circumstance.

*NODS*

People understand that because that's the way people, in general, operate.

I noticed, after all this thought I did, that other people did the same thing, but without the stress. They did the same thing, but without all the forethought... the anxiety and the self chastisement. That's just the way the world works.

Hmm. I don't know, it seems like people understand that to a degree, but only to a certain point? Only when they can see the obstacles you're dealing with, when they're external. Otherwise it wouldn't be so difficult to convince some people that, say, depression is an obstacle ( ... )

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siegeengine February 8 2009, 21:13:29 UTC
well... I'm not sure I meant that people understand as in they understand completely what you're going through. People don't really have that much empathy anymore, so they really don't.

They understand when you say, "I can't promise anything," though, or "I'll do my best," because they fill in the extenuating circumstances with what's going on in their own life. Like if you say, "well, I'll try, but I can't promise," they'll probably jump in with, "Oh! yeah! totally" and be thinking in their head about their mother in law's house that caught fire, their pet turtle that they just had to flush last week, etc. etc.. and they'll empathize using their own frustrations and obstacles, rather than yours.

It works, though. I mean, seriously, you can actually watch their faces and see them reliving moments of their lives. It's really... well.. hmm.

I'm not sure if there's a word for that, but it really is that.

sorry, I go on too much and I think I missed the main point of your post.

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hry2007 February 6 2009, 17:20:25 UTC
*hugs* I hear ya...

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beandelphiki February 7 2009, 17:27:05 UTC
Thanks. *hugs back*

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weird_fin February 9 2009, 10:32:14 UTC
Yeah it's difficult sometimes... and most of the time i'm running away, I don't really realise I am until it's too late. Which could be both bad and good I guess.

I also identify with both the Doctors at times...I find it hard to say which i'm more like in some respects even though i'm not like them at all.

I hope it gets less tiring soon. *hugs*

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