I know this ". . . I'm supposed to know what to do with my life?" feeling. I have yet to find a solution. I muddled through school by getting a BA in Theatre, because that seemed to come with forcing me to socialize and not as many papers as an English major, and then discovered . . . I still have no idea what I want to do.
Now I'm taking a biology class at my campus, reading LGBTQ texts in my own time, and daily wondering what the hell you do with yourself if your only enduring interest is a) reading and b) pretending to be people of the opposite sex/gender on the interwebs.
. . . And from talking to several other folks my age/from my graduating class, this is a widespread phenonmenon, the not knowing where to go. I'm not sure there's a bolt from the blue that always tells people. Sometimes I think you just flail your way along.
I agree. I also think, though, that our parents may have done us a disservice by telling us we could "be anything we want" when we grew up. Because (1) that's not true, and (2) it gives so many choices that it can be really difficult to pick just one thing.
In total agreement. It's a nice sentiment, and (speaking as an American) it's very U.S. People and popular culture repeating it reinforce that whole "rags from riches" feel-good-iness the U.S. has about itself-you can do anything! Anything at all! All you need is a goshdurned strong Work Ethic and a Dream.
. . . When, really, your options are limited. Class, sex/gender, race, period in history, physical ability, geography, what your parents do for a living, who you know . . . it means you're only going to get certain options. And not that many of those options are being say, Obama or Steve Jobs (or David Tennant, natch). False advertising, children's television shows! (And I'm still not quite over the fact that raising dragons or being a superhero are not actually viable "you can be anything you want!" dreams).
And "being anything you want" requires having a strong want. I'm stymied, myself, by the fact that I don't have a strong want. People say, "What do you dream of doing?" "I don't know" doesn't seem to be considered a
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Not exactly glad or comfroted to hear and see more people than I know at this flailing stage in their lives, but that's me apparently too.
I failed a couple of subjects one which I would have definitely passed if not for my severely reduced motivation. I don't know what it is exactly, but I realise that the course I was in wasn't for me, and I also had the problem (worse though) with my GPA to get into a different uni that hold, maybe, a more interesting course.
I've been somewhat lucky enough to transfer on a provisional basis to Arts (Media) - with a comajor in communication and I can still keep up biosciences in a way. I was doing Biomedical Sciences course. Now, by doing a co-major of Bioscience.
But even though I liked Physiology and passed easily enough, I did notice that by being required to do it no matter what, I was losing the motivation.
And it doesn't help that my nature is already indecisive at the best of times...
god I so know that feeling where something is amazingly interesting until you *have* to do it, then suddenly something completely else is incredibly f-ing interesting.
I think what happened with me is that I finally gave up looking for a higher purpose in life, and just decided to look for a job. Then college became a means to an end, rather than just a means to acquire a higher calling. It became practical rather than theoretical.
still, I wish I could go back now and finish what I had started back then.
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Now I'm taking a biology class at my campus, reading LGBTQ texts in my own time, and daily wondering what the hell you do with yourself if your only enduring interest is a) reading and b) pretending to be people of the opposite sex/gender on the interwebs.
. . . And from talking to several other folks my age/from my graduating class, this is a widespread phenonmenon, the not knowing where to go. I'm not sure there's a bolt from the blue that always tells people. Sometimes I think you just flail your way along.
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. . . When, really, your options are limited. Class, sex/gender, race, period in history, physical ability, geography, what your parents do for a living, who you know . . . it means you're only going to get certain options. And not that many of those options are being say, Obama or Steve Jobs (or David Tennant, natch). False advertising, children's television shows! (And I'm still not quite over the fact that raising dragons or being a superhero are not actually viable "you can be anything you want!" dreams).
And "being anything you want" requires having a strong want. I'm stymied, myself, by the fact that I don't have a strong want. People say, "What do you dream of doing?" "I don't know" doesn't seem to be considered a ( ... )
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I failed a couple of subjects one which I would have definitely passed if not for my severely reduced motivation. I don't know what it is exactly, but I realise that the course I was in wasn't for me, and I also had the problem (worse though) with my GPA to get into a different uni that hold, maybe, a more interesting course.
I've been somewhat lucky enough to transfer on a provisional basis to Arts (Media) - with a comajor in communication and I can still keep up biosciences in a way. I was doing Biomedical Sciences course. Now, by doing a co-major of Bioscience.
But even though I liked Physiology and passed easily enough, I did notice that by being required to do it no matter what, I was losing the motivation.
And it doesn't help that my nature is already indecisive at the best of times...
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I think what happened with me is that I finally gave up looking for a higher purpose in life, and just decided to look for a job. Then college became a means to an end, rather than just a means to acquire a higher calling. It became practical rather than theoretical.
still, I wish I could go back now and finish what I had started back then.
sorry, this doesn't really help at all.
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