Today is the first day of my favorite month of the year. New start?

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The knotted oak bends
The willow weaps
And all is dead in the world.

Just when you think that things could not get any worse. Just when you think that you have been through everything, that maybe it was time for things to start looking up...something comes along to test your strength. ( again, and again, and again...) You get knocked down, you drag yourself up and then someone comes along with a baseball bat and ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like you are just always waiting? Waiting for class to be over, waiting for the light to turn green, waiting for spring to come, waiting for the elevator, waiting in line for food, waiting for a practice room...I feel like that except I don't know what I'm waiting for. I feel like I need something but I don't know what it is. ( Read more... )

This morning I had work at 5:45am. I had to finish writing my rough draft for english and then me, mike, andrew and some random dude went to see Napoleon Dynamite. That was one of the weirdest movies I have ever seen...Right now though I feel really sick. My stomach hurts soooo badly. I wish my honey was here to rub my tummy. So it's another night ( Read more... )

This weekend was amazing. Everything is going to be alright. Was it just the weather?? Ben came late Friday night and we talked until 6am and fell asleep in each others arms. Who can measure love? How can one person say that they love someone more or less? You either love someone or you don't; there is no in-between. What I have learned is love is ( Read more... )

I am so unbelievably alone. I've never been told that I was a ball and chain before...guess there really is a first time for everything. I feel like I'm falling into this deep never-ending pit. I think I have been falling since last year. No matter how hard I try to hold on to something it just slips through my grasp (losing finger nails and ( Read more... )

Lately I have not been feeling like myself, maybe that's why I'm starting one of these things. Every morning the alarm goes off (sometimes 5am some times 7) and there is never a day where I get to sleep in. I get up shower grab a bite and am off to hours of classes and rehearsals. Coming back to my dorm I usually find no roommate and am alone here ( Read more... )