i have no faith in anything anymore. things just dont seem to be able to get better. i dont really believe in love, i dont believe in god, and im starting to not even believe in real happiness anymore. i dont remember the last time someone laughed in my house. im getting upset because of my own selfish desires.. its so hard to see everyone else ( Read more... )

im getting kind of sick of my life here. im tired of being a nobody. college is looking more appealing everyday... it better live up to my expectations

i dont know when it happened, or how it happened... but somehow my once picturesque family faded, and the one that's here now appeared. it has gotten to the point where i cant stand to live here. i try to stay strong, try to act like im ok but im tired of acting. i am huddled in a corner crying with my hands over my ears. since when is life so hard ( Read more... )

ugh stop being so meannn

wow im a horrible person... i just COMPLETLY lied to my moms face

i wish i didnt have to.

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so i guess that 2-3 week vacation from being depressed is over... so cool.

i love being the only one whos going to end up not going to prom, its like way cool

waking up at mullys ( Read more... )

maybe it wont be too bad... even though most people forget it, the ones that matter remember. ox's text message at exactly 12:00 brought a smile to my face. and em's taking me to lunch tomorrow , so cool