A Hard Day

[beartalon]

Today was a clusterfuck.

I didn't sleep enough last night to feel up the drive with friends to meet in Frankenmuth. It's a seven hour round-trip with a  border crossing.  I was unable to sleep well after I messaged my friends this morning telling them I couldn't go. Even when I got up around 10, finally giving up on sleep, I wasn't very alert. It

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[maxauburn]

I hope you'll feel better soon,

I see parallels between you & I in that I remember all too well where my head was one year after George died.

I was depressed, anxious, lonely as hell, empty, unmotivated, and sleeping a lot.

I felt sorry for the cats-I wasn't giving them as much attention as I should have those first few years after my loss.

I liked Iron Man 3 a lot!

Sorry the movie took you to a bad place.

*BIG HUGS*

[beartalon]

I don't have cats but I don't know how my plants have survived. I eventually had to add a reminder to my email program to make me water them!

Iron Man 3 was a great movie. I can separate myself from it enough to say that. I don't think I'll buy it to rewatch. My Jason loved to buy movies he liked. I am far more selective.

I into day 3 of my leave now. My mind is already telling me that I only have a little more than four weeks before I go back to work. I need to focus on what I have to do, not worry that I won't get it done. Life is a daily thing. What happens happens.

[beartalon]

THis whole year has been a bunch of odd little moments where memories and emotions came strongly when they weren't expected.

I cried once over the towels that Jason seemed to prefer, not that he had a favourite, but he always seemed to pull these towels from the dried laundry and just put them back in the bathroom. Now I don't even think about them. There are some memories that repeat and some have faded back into just memories rather than strong emotional times.

I'm glad my friend was there for me, and I'm glad for you being here as well. Hugs, Albert.