The Final First: One year since Jason passed away

[beartalon]

Comments

[maxauburn]

As I told you months ago-the first year is the worst.

Once you get over that monster of a hurdle, it gets gradually better.

I cried the first few times I went food shopping without George - it was horrible.

I could almost hear him in my head saying, "Shall we get the things we need to bake a cake?" or, " Let's get a couple of pizza shells. The first Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Year's was horrible - it was a sob fest for me.

But you are over that hurdle now.

I know it was rough. I know that whole year was like a fucking bad dream, but you made it back, like the Apollo 13 astronauts made it back from their nearly fatal accident in space.

You have made a plan to move ahead-and move on.

I'm proud of you.

[beartalon]

Thank you, Gerry. Those days were hard, and those little sudden moments. Life has pushed me forward, and now I'm walking along rather than feeling like I'm pulling/pushing against a large weight.

[charliebearnj]

Hugs and shoulder and peace.

[beartalon]

Shoulder? I have used a few shoulders for support in these times. Thank you, Charlie.

[tonethbone]

Everyone reacts differently to the death of a loved one. Everyone is entitled to their own form of mourning. I am glad that you seem to have arrived to being at peace with yourself.

[beartalon]

Tony, it took me a while to realize that grieving in my own way was absolutely fine. Thinking I wasn't progressing in any way was why I sought out a counsellor who helped me see it. Thanks for your kind words. Peace is a much better state.

[tonethbone]

And have a great birthday ...today

[beartalon]

Thanks, Tony. I enjoyed it in Vancouver. It was great.

[badisgood85]

Thinking of you. <3

[beartalon]

hugs you tight Thank you.