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[beastofacistern]

I'm leaving for this medical/health conference camp in Washington D.C. tomorrow, and although I've been looking forward to it so much, now I realize that I really don't want to go. I mean like at this point in time. It's just that I've been gone since summer started and I got back a couple days ago and caught up with what's been going on back

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[itcomeslikefire]

god i understand all of that. its such a hard thing to deal with, and i think it condradicts our nature as teenagers. i mean, really, all i want to do is stay at home, be in my zone of comfort with the people i love. but even that is so hard to do when an incredible opportunity comes your way. people say, how can you pass it up? my recent life has been full of those. all i am thankful for and appreciate beyond belief, but i still have that lingering feeling and wondering of what would have happened had i done what i really felt like doing. in the end, though, im extremely glad i carried through with whatever it was. for instance, when i went to art school in boston for a month....that was hard. i didn't want to leave, and although it developed me, i felt like the kind of development i needed was at home

[lauren474]

i hope my present made you feel a leetle better