He had a bad day

[beatniknight]

"Tell everyone that this is for anybody who eva said anything bad about me, see I do have feelings too. Blame the people who were horrible and injust 2 me. This is because of them, I am human just like them. I hope they rot in hell 4 what they made me do. They know who they are.  None of you blame urself mum, dad, Sam and the rest of my family.

Comments

[anonymous]

To be fair, the kid was shit-faced. And Welsh.

[beatniknight]

Not sure who left this comment, but the two usually go hand in hand.

[satyagraha6]

It was me. I have no idea how that came up anonymous.

[zhasper]

Someone committing suicide is obviously not being rational[1]. Why would you expect his methodology and his reasoning be rational?

[1] Except, perhaps, in cases of terminal illness. Or lots of pain. Or sacrificing oneself for the good of others (say, in a sinking boat) - but we don't tend to call that suicide, so it probably doesn't count.

[beatniknight]

I would disagree. I think maybe they're being short-sighted, or foolish, or selfish, or any number of other things, but I think that the idea of ending one's personal (emotional or what have you) pain that seems, at the time of suicide, to be insurmountable isn't necessarily irrational. In fact, this is how our brains work normally, or so the recent pop-psych book, Stumbling on Happiness, tells me.

This suicide as attack, though, is different than trying end pain. His snippy little, "They know who they are," comment is a clear indication that this suicide is a different kind.

[zhasper]

Irrational was probably a poor choice of word. Given that one has "personal pain that seems to be insurmountable", what makes you think that one would be capable of considering the impact one's actions will have after one is dead, let alone the fortitude to continue to bear that insurmountable pain until such time and place as ones passing is convenient for all concerned and carefully planned in order to minimise inconvenient anniversarys and such?

I don't really know what that rant is about though. Re-reading your post, the things I'm responding to aren't there, so... I must be responding to some inner daemon of my own. Interesting.

With regards to this one though, the kid had a BAC of 0.15 at the time...

[beatniknight]

It's true. And as my good friend Satyagraha6 has pointed out, he was also Welsh, which is just like pouring saltpeter on a grease fire.

But, anyway, yeah, if you're going to commit suicide I suppose you must not be thinking totally rationally. My point in my response to you was only to say that even thoroughly irrational people (and most people are irrational all the time, indeed the part of your brain responsible for rational thought doesn't even... I'm sure you've heard this before) don't go around lying on train tracks, generally.

Perhaps, and I don't want to turn this into a psychiatrist's office, and I have no formal training so this is straight out of my ass, you've contemplated suicide yourself before and found that calling your thoughts "irrational" was the best way to protect yourself from this truth (the way Freud says that OCD is a way to protect the self from the disire to play with or even eat feces). Or maybe you've just seen Harold and Maude one too many times.

[tony_m]

The kid is obviously a coward. I think most suicide victims are. So in that respect, the text message makes sense.

[beatniknight]

Most, maybe. But that Buddhist monk setting himself on fire had some fucking balls.

[beatniknight]

I think maybe the kids were mean to this guy less because he was gay and more because he was a whiney bitch. But that's just my hypothesis.

[thegayboyfriend]

he brings shame to my name.

plus, what a selfish thing to do. if you're going to kill yourself, don't make someone else the instrument of your death. that's just cruel. and wussy.

[beatniknight]

I know, right?