My 89-year-old grandmother is in the hospital because she had a stroke. Granted she’s 89, and we are all just waiting for our share of the inheritance (yes I said it) there is something that makes me nervous about watching her die. At heart she’s a 55-year-old party animal stuck in an 9 decade old body. I’ve never seen her sober, I’ve never seen ( Read more... )

my lungs are pulled too tight, just trying to breathe. i can feel it down my arms and to my fingertips, i can feel it in my ribs warming my stomach. i’ve fooled myself into thinking that i can just hold the little air in my lungs in and with power of an exhale it will all go away. inhale ( Read more... )

dear europe, send my blondie back. songs don't sound the same without her, no one understands the drunken code i speak, further more no one understands the sober code i speak, the roads seem empty, and i'm sure starbucks misses us together ( Read more... )

6 days.


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i'm going to clean out my car ( Read more... )

i started my new nanny job today. i work for the owner of ReMax, i’d give you a job description, but basically i’m a paid housewife for a single dad with two kids. don’t mind if i mention what a wonderfully handsome single dad he is! i owe dave bean so much for getting me this job ( Read more... )

I was driving back to school the other day and my car caught on fire while I was driving it. I had a bad wire that caused a spark that came in contact with spilt oil which caused a fire. I had an extinguisher in the trunk so I pulled over and put it out (I have amazing panic reactions). Fire is my biggest physical fear, driving is second biggest ( Read more... )

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we shall not sleep tonight- John McCrae

i hate that i can’t tell one kind of car from another, that somewhere between nerves and dyslexia i can’t remember even the first 3 letters of a license plate ( Read more... )