okayyyyyyy ;D

[beautie]

Sorry I haven't written in here lately, just been sorta, uhm busy i guess ;x I wrote in here tuesday? yeah, weds uhm heh i dunno, thurs, uhm boring yeah, friday i had to work and yesterday i had to work and today i gotta work, such fuckers ;x

Anyways...

Remember when I was almost dead, 2 days after my birthday, 20 pills should do it i thought.

Comments

[punkxprincess]

if u think im doing that for attention think again. i tried calling u yesterday to talk to u but u never answered the fucking phone. and actually im not phsyically killing myself. i havent touched a single thing to promote suicide. its like everything i try to do goes wrong. everything i want to do never happens. i get treated like shit. youve been treating me like shit. making me feel like im worth nothing. your supposed to be my bestfriend. ive been having my own problems, and all u can do is sit there and be like "well all u want is a boyfriend and attention" well a net boyfriend is a lame excuse for having one. that right there proves ur desperate. and im not gonna scoop back down to that level. another thing is that u never talk to me. i have u on block caz whats the point in having u off block? ur not gonna talk to me anyway. i mean shit. ur always too busy for dusten. and when i call acting like a bitch. i have no one anymore rachael. i dont have anyone else. the only other best friend i have here that listens to me is

[beautie]

You should of left a message then b/c i wasnt home, i was at work. And dusten and i arent a 'net' relationship, we're making it physical, so true feelings are there. And katie, you know my school is 75% black, you know that, i go through what you go through every day. Not very comforting but i just shut my mouth and stare out the window. And i do have a reason to be self centered, my sister died in 99, all of my childhood i was ignored, sorry if you think thats not a reason. Every fight we've had we've both had an equal amount of apologies, i know that for a fact. I'm never too busy cuz of dusten, dusten bitches at me cuz he thinks im busy. If you dont give me the chance to make it right even though you already have, say the last words. And by you going to nyc doesnt mean you're getting away from me b/c i havent seen u in a week and a half and havent talked to u in days. You dont know what i live through each day, i dont know what you go through. k?

[punkxprincess]

whos more important me or him?

the person u can see more
or the person who ull see for maybe a month?

i wanna tell u this. i tell u more than i tell my true friend. holly doesnt know half of the shit ive done. and ive known holly longer than u have. you know more about me than my true friend does...

Katie

[jjamespoet]

I don't think you should be attacking rachael katie, no i don't know you no i don't know the whole situation but i know that rachael doesn't need all this.
joey