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I hate this place. I hate being here. I feel so alone here. I just want to go home. I want to go home. But I can't leave. I don't want to live with someone else's family. I don't even like these people. I don't fit in here. But I love Chris. I don't what to do. It's like...I feel shitty whatever I do. Fuck. I miss my family. My mom. I resent Chris ( Read more... )

Yay! We finally got a computer here!!! Now I will have something to do during the day, besides sleep! Yay! So, you can expect to see a lot more updates from me now. The computer is really slow....it's very retarded.....I actually hate it a lot.....but it's better than nothing. It will work until I save up enough cash to get an updated model ( Read more... )

Ok......survey time!! Chris and I are having a disagreement, so I need your help. I think the guy in this picture is sexy, he does not. Leave comments to help settle this!


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So....I am totally stressed out. I am so in debt it's rediculous. I have $0.99 in the bank....and just got a $51.13 phone bill to pay. Why it's that high, I don't know. I think it has something to do with the fact that I am living in PA now. Excellent...just great. The guy from Stonebirdge has not called me for an interview....which means I will ( Read more... )

Yes...I certainly do love him. What's better yet, I believe I am in love with him as well. Yes. It is the most wonderful feeling ever....also the most terrifying. I have never felt quite this way before. It's amazing. I can't help but feel so happy when I am with him...even though there are so many stressful things on my mind. It's like all this ( Read more... )

Ok, sorry I haven't updated. Chris and I are fine. We did a lot of talking, and things are a lot better than they were. I've been back in PA with him for awhile now. He's trying, so, that's all I can really ask. I really don't like his father though. Apparently he has been talking about me behind my back...saying that I am a free-loader because I ( Read more... )

So....Chris and I are taking a "break." Yeah. Mostly becasue I feel like he has been taking the fact that I am with him for granted. I don't deny that he cares about me...I know he does....but he doesn't show it. He doesn't do anything to make me feel special...like he really appreciates that I am there with him. He showed me more that he cared ( Read more... )

So....it's been quite awhile. It's because I no longer have easy access to the internet. I'm living with Chris....his family doesn't do the internet. We are moving in 2 days. Finally. I think I would go out of my mind if I had to stay there much longer. PA here I come. I'll be getting my own computer, and interenet hookup ASAP, so I'll update much ( Read more... )