Long ago I dreamed of love.
I had this dream on December 5, 2002 but through forgetfulness of this community and laziness I'm just getting around to posting now. Cut for length.
It was a dream unlike any other I had ever experienced before and I've only come close to it a few times since. It started out by a dinner out in a desert. I was standing outside by one or two parked cars when the male characters from friends walked out of the diner. They pulled their guns and tried to shoot me but I was too fast for them. I ran up close to one of them and used him as a shield as I forced him to aim his gun under his chin and pull the trigger. Then as he fell dead I took the gun and fired on the other two guys killing them as well. I went around firing into their heads to make sure they were dead and ran out of bullets. When I was empty they all got back up, looked at me, and then walked away. This was during the day.
The scene changed and I was walking down a dirty street at night. I passed a short ally that lead to an enclosed back lot. When I looked in there I saw a kid getting beaten by a cop. I run over to help the kid and the cop has his gun out. I grab it and just like earlier I use it to kill it's owner. I turned to the kid and told him to run away. He didn't at first until I threatened him with the gun. After he left I went over to the cop's motorcycle and lifted up the seat like it was the trunk of a car. I grab a few items from it like a large folding knife (about a foot long folded), a small folding knife (just like one that I own that's about one inch), a bunch of small bullets (about half as big as a dime), and a piece of paper with writing on it (I don't remember if I could read it or not but I don't remember what it said either). Then the cop started to revive so I got out of there.
I walked out of the ally and tried to blend in with some other people walking down the street. We walked across a street and it was daytime. The sun is very hot so I looked for some shade and see that there is one tree in a park and no one else is near it. I walk over sit down and relax a bit. It wasn't a big tree at first but it was enough. Here is where things go weird for me. Suddenly a young woman walks over and sits next to me. She then lays against me like I'm laying against the tree except she reaches her arm behind her and gently brings my head down and kissed me. For a moment I hesitate. I had never felt like that before. There was no fear or uncertainty, no lust or depression. As she drew back a little I realized it was love that I was feeling and I kissed her back. It was the best feeling in the world. It was like I had found that part of me that I had been missing for all of my life. We held each other close and looked out on all of the others who were in the field. They were hot and miserable under the sun and it seemed so crowded. We felt sorry for them.
After we had held each other awhile her dad pulled up in a van and gave us a ride. She and I sat in the backseat holding hands and just looking at each other. Then it was time to eat as me, her and her mom and dad started passing around snacks. I saw a container that was about two feet wide by one foot long and maybe six inches deep in front of me full of wood chips (like the kind you put in a hamster cage). In the chips were snakes but I could only see parts of them since most was covered up. I stared to pull them up and toss them out the window. As I did that I noticed that some of the wood chips were falling on the window ledge and they had little baby mice in them. I stopped and her mom said something to me that I don't remember.
It started to get dark and the van became a bus. Her parents disappeared and we were alone on our way into Chicago/my home. We were sitting on the last row of seats at the back of the bus (which was like a city bus not greyhound) and there was a TV behind my head. She got up and sat on my lap facing me and we made out awhile and held each other. At that moment the TV started playing something like America's Most Wanted and it showed a reenactment of what I had done to the cop earlier. She watched it and despite the person playing me not looking very much like me there was no way she didn't know what I had done. She hugged me and I looked out the window as a bunch of numbers passed by outside. Then it was time to say goodbye. I asked her to come with me but she couldn't. So when the bus got to it's destination I got off and woke up.
When I woke up I was still feeling great and I wrote down as much as I could remember of it. I've only had 3 or 4 dreams like that since then.
It was a dream unlike any other I had ever experienced before and I've only come close to it a few times since. It started out by a dinner out in a desert. I was standing outside by one or two parked cars when the male characters from friends walked out of the diner. They pulled their guns and tried to shoot me but I was too fast for them. I ran up close to one of them and used him as a shield as I forced him to aim his gun under his chin and pull the trigger. Then as he fell dead I took the gun and fired on the other two guys killing them as well. I went around firing into their heads to make sure they were dead and ran out of bullets. When I was empty they all got back up, looked at me, and then walked away. This was during the day.
The scene changed and I was walking down a dirty street at night. I passed a short ally that lead to an enclosed back lot. When I looked in there I saw a kid getting beaten by a cop. I run over to help the kid and the cop has his gun out. I grab it and just like earlier I use it to kill it's owner. I turned to the kid and told him to run away. He didn't at first until I threatened him with the gun. After he left I went over to the cop's motorcycle and lifted up the seat like it was the trunk of a car. I grab a few items from it like a large folding knife (about a foot long folded), a small folding knife (just like one that I own that's about one inch), a bunch of small bullets (about half as big as a dime), and a piece of paper with writing on it (I don't remember if I could read it or not but I don't remember what it said either). Then the cop started to revive so I got out of there.
I walked out of the ally and tried to blend in with some other people walking down the street. We walked across a street and it was daytime. The sun is very hot so I looked for some shade and see that there is one tree in a park and no one else is near it. I walk over sit down and relax a bit. It wasn't a big tree at first but it was enough. Here is where things go weird for me. Suddenly a young woman walks over and sits next to me. She then lays against me like I'm laying against the tree except she reaches her arm behind her and gently brings my head down and kissed me. For a moment I hesitate. I had never felt like that before. There was no fear or uncertainty, no lust or depression. As she drew back a little I realized it was love that I was feeling and I kissed her back. It was the best feeling in the world. It was like I had found that part of me that I had been missing for all of my life. We held each other close and looked out on all of the others who were in the field. They were hot and miserable under the sun and it seemed so crowded. We felt sorry for them.
After we had held each other awhile her dad pulled up in a van and gave us a ride. She and I sat in the backseat holding hands and just looking at each other. Then it was time to eat as me, her and her mom and dad started passing around snacks. I saw a container that was about two feet wide by one foot long and maybe six inches deep in front of me full of wood chips (like the kind you put in a hamster cage). In the chips were snakes but I could only see parts of them since most was covered up. I stared to pull them up and toss them out the window. As I did that I noticed that some of the wood chips were falling on the window ledge and they had little baby mice in them. I stopped and her mom said something to me that I don't remember.
It started to get dark and the van became a bus. Her parents disappeared and we were alone on our way into Chicago/my home. We were sitting on the last row of seats at the back of the bus (which was like a city bus not greyhound) and there was a TV behind my head. She got up and sat on my lap facing me and we made out awhile and held each other. At that moment the TV started playing something like America's Most Wanted and it showed a reenactment of what I had done to the cop earlier. She watched it and despite the person playing me not looking very much like me there was no way she didn't know what I had done. She hugged me and I looked out the window as a bunch of numbers passed by outside. Then it was time to say goodbye. I asked her to come with me but she couldn't. So when the bus got to it's destination I got off and woke up.
When I woke up I was still feeling great and I wrote down as much as I could remember of it. I've only had 3 or 4 dreams like that since then.