Another lame afternoon, drove around with Natalie and Logan for a bit to shitty places, the only thing keeping me sane and not kicking them out of my car, and making them walk their asses home, was all of singing at the top of our lungs to Murder City Devils. I love Natalie and all but sometimes I think she will never understand me, and Logan was ( Read more... )

So last night I went out to dinner with my dad which was actaully okay. No talk about the horrible music I listen to, no mention that I would be even more pretty if my hair was more natural and girly, none that the whole in my face takes away from my real beauty. It's hard hearing that every fucking time I talk to my dad, but still I know Im hott ( Read more... )

Yet another horrible night, the house was freezing and even in my bed I was shivering so bad, the only time I stopped shivering was when I was on the phone with Tyler and I forgot about everything. Then, well I wont name names, but yeah he called and found out I was on the phone with another boy and I told him to call me at midnight but then I ( Read more... )

I'm tired, and annoyed. I call Nessa all the fucking time, she lives only lives like 30 min away, and she knows I dont go to school anymore, she knows I call, she is never home, phones work both ways but still I get this ( Read more... )

I hate fighting with people, but it's all I seem to be doing with people lately. Maybe I'm just getting to fucking tired of people fucking me over and kicking me around. I'm finally telling people that it's isn't going to happen anymore, Im not a door mat. I'm not drunk all the time now, Im not just sitting there taking shit, now Im giving shit ( Read more... )

I'm up a bit to early and it sucks, but I had to drive Logan to school. I feel so bad, because he just moved here, has little friends, and now he ran away from home so he has no where to live, so I'm sharing my bed with him, I just don't want him sleeping in parks like he intended to do. I think my moms a little wierded out that I have some ( Read more... )

Im not sure what to say, because last night was amazingly fun, but Im still sitting her lonely today, miserable, sad, alone, and on the verge of tears. The same song on repeat, because this one part is exactly how I feel, and everytime she sings the verse my heart breaks just a little more. My heart is smashed to peices, I've been fucked over one ( Read more... )