i heard you slipping down the hall ( Read more... )

friday night was interesting, fun but interesting
i cant believe what happened - im grounded as a mother until further notice
i cant take this - finals are this week... good luck everyone

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i told you everything. from top to bottom ( Read more... )

WHAT DID I DO THIS TIME?

IT WAS MY SENSE OF STARVATION KICKING IN.
THEY ALL KNEW IT. IM STARVING FOR A TOUCH.
A TOUCH OF THIS AND A TOUCH OF THAT.
I CANT FIND THE RECIPE THAT GETS RID OF THIS
EMPTYNESS... I FEEL FORGOTTEN AND LOST,
AS IF I SKIPPED A STEP IN THE RECIPE AND
ITS FUCKED EVERYTHING UP.

IT WAS NICE TO SEE YOU, THOUGH.

WAIT, ARE YOU STARVING?

im here. its strange ( Read more... )

why does my mom tell me to go back and live with her so that i can have material things and fit in better at school? she said that ill probably have even more friends if i have the same things as they have.

why does money matter so fucking much?

i think im staying at her house tomorrow night.
im scared shitless.

i want to find a cliff...

and jump off of it.

i cant live like this anymore.
i need it back.
i need him back.
im sorry but it hurts more than the world.

since when am i cool with them? i thought they still hated me.
maybe i was wrong? lets hope so.
this weekend was full and busy, but everything was worth it.
seeing cat, seeing jen, mika, chanel, going round town, going to a picnic and 3 non-ghetto people having a dinner full of being "gangster". hah ary i had fun. im exhausted, but i had fun.