i think it's strange how i've been hearing it for my entire life but only now am i actually a believer in the phrase "money doesn't buy happiness"

how can this be so difficult

why do i choose to continually make myself unhappy

silly me for thinking this day would be any different

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maybe it's a battle that i've been fighting everyday for what seems like my entire life but it's probably only been for 6 years since when i remember life before that, i was happy, truly happy. and maybe i'm so attached to my childhood because it was just so good and i wish i could relive it everyday. and maybe i have a sickness that i'm too tired ( Read more... )

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why can't i be appreciative and love life like my best friends can

i'm rarely physically tired. just constantly emotionally

i fucking hate you. with every fucking ounce of hatred in my body. I would be the happiest fucking daughter in the world if you just went away and left me the fuck alone. Hmmm can i say fuck more? what would o mommy dear say if she say this!! she'd just have another fucking talk with me about why i suck so much and i guess i'm not mature enough to ( Read more... )

time for change!!
gosh i hope
and pleeease someone get me away from here!