I am being completely serious... i hate my life... this place, this roommate, this job, this school, i have no one and i can't take it anymore.  I want to die.

I am going to kill myself.  I am not joking... I haven't figured out how yet but i will.  I hate feeling sad all the time, i hate doing things i know are wrong just so i don't feel alone 10 minute, i hate myself for everything that i am and for everything i do. its over i am sick of it i can't take it anymore.

You are a crazy bitch and you make my life miserable.  I hate everything about you how you always have to be the victim, how I am always the one to blame. Fuck you you selfish cunt. how dare you accuse me of not being there, i listen to your nightly fucking rants about your failures, how dare you say that i am uncaring.  you have never asked me how ( Read more... )

Well I gained 30lbs in the last few months… but I lost 5lb this week. I am considering it a victory. I hate Big Boy with a seething passion, I hate Grand Valley more, I hate living with my sister the most. I want to move far far away and marry a millionaire… I will settle for not crying myself to sleep five nights a week. Also Justin and are done ( Read more... )

Today made me seriously want to kill myself, my sister is crazy and a bitch, my job sucks ass, i'm incapable of doing anything, and i want someone i really can't have... all of which are bound to kill me inside. I am becoming a bad person and its not happening slowly any more. Everything i had and everything i was are slowly slipping away... at ( Read more... )

I'm drinking beer by myself, wishing pain upon others, and listening to angry girl music... i really hope this feeling goes away as fast as it came on.

So I use to have needs that weren't being taken care of, so i've decided not to have needs anymore... until well they can be taken care of. So Jesse answered my phone when my ex-boyfriend called and although hilarious, Dustin is fucking obsessed with beating Jesses ass now and won't stop calling me. And i'm pretty sure Justin is in the army now.

so i forgot about lj and my password but considering i only use three it didn't take me long to remember. so i googled everyone and everyone in my life (including myself) is so lame nothing came up. except for one person and that was someones lj post talking shit about them.

i want to die, or stop crying

here is a message to ( Read more... )